Thecodfather
January 1st, 2013, 12:20 AM
Sudden depression hit me out of no where. I dunno.. I think I just need to vent.
I think it's because I have a broken memory thingy, so I forget a lot of things. Was talking a minute ago and I suddenly remember how much my brother used to bully me and hit me, then how much drugs my mother did. I dunno, maybe I'm just whining about it. Just annoys me. How my older brother used to hit me and laugh at me every time my dad would make me go round his house. (Half brother, lived somewhere else.) He would do like..Nasty stuff. He like, bullied me. For things he used to like, and I only liked them because he did.
And then my mother used to do like drugs and stuff in front of me, like; not giving a shit. It wasn't no cocaine or anything, she's too cheep for anything. Everything she paid for was mine and my sister's DLA money, which is money supposed to be spent on US. Like taking us out on holidays and stuff, but nope. I've never been abroad, or anywhere really. She used our money for food and drugs, she wouldn't get a job she was too fucking lazy. She beat me once for loosing a 5 pound note, not a small telling off; a full on beating. She used to take methadone's and speed, I hate her.
Mother or not I still don't want to see her, I hate seeing her. She hasn't apologized, she thinks I've forgotten. I kinda pretend I have. My brother? We're cool, ish. I just.. I've just had a couple of flashbacks so I felt like I needed to post, I feel slightly better at the moment I have missed out on quite a bit. Thanks.
I think it's because I have a broken memory thingy, so I forget a lot of things. Was talking a minute ago and I suddenly remember how much my brother used to bully me and hit me, then how much drugs my mother did. I dunno, maybe I'm just whining about it. Just annoys me. How my older brother used to hit me and laugh at me every time my dad would make me go round his house. (Half brother, lived somewhere else.) He would do like..Nasty stuff. He like, bullied me. For things he used to like, and I only liked them because he did.
And then my mother used to do like drugs and stuff in front of me, like; not giving a shit. It wasn't no cocaine or anything, she's too cheep for anything. Everything she paid for was mine and my sister's DLA money, which is money supposed to be spent on US. Like taking us out on holidays and stuff, but nope. I've never been abroad, or anywhere really. She used our money for food and drugs, she wouldn't get a job she was too fucking lazy. She beat me once for loosing a 5 pound note, not a small telling off; a full on beating. She used to take methadone's and speed, I hate her.
Mother or not I still don't want to see her, I hate seeing her. She hasn't apologized, she thinks I've forgotten. I kinda pretend I have. My brother? We're cool, ish. I just.. I've just had a couple of flashbacks so I felt like I needed to post, I feel slightly better at the moment I have missed out on quite a bit. Thanks.