booboo22
December 30th, 2012, 05:13 PM
I just recently returned from my first semester at college and am now spending a long christmas break at home. My break is right around 6 weeks. I came about 10 before christmas and return to college in late january.
I generally don't exactly get along with my family as we don't always see eye to eye on things. Because some of my friends go back to school earlier than I do, we decried to get together a couple times. Each of the three times I was doing things with my friends my mother calls me at midnight so that I can come home and get a good night sleep so i'm not irritable in the morning… This is where I will add in that I am rarely irritable in the morning! I then go home and she says that she can't sleep well if I'm not in my bed at home… I have been gone for five months now and she seems to sleep fine.
So even now that I am in college my parents still treat me like I'm in high school.
Then anytime they see someone with a tattoo or piercings other than female earlobes,(I'm a guy, btw) they start talking about how they look like hoodlums and their parents should be ashamed. I have never had a problem with peircings or tattoos because I talk with people who have them and know their reasonings and Have even considered getting both myself… The one thing that holds me back is that my parents will basically disown me if I do get them. I hate that they are so judgmental about them and I feel powerless to state my opinion.
Then all through childhood, my parents always told me to follow the rules and laws and not drink until 21, etc. So I NEVER did anything illegal at home because I felt that they would get me in massive trouble, at college I have drank alcohol and smoked weed, neither to excess. And it turns out now that they were always expecting me to at least drink in high school. But they still assume that I don't drink and I don't want to tell them that I do, but they want me to know… I get really torn apart about this…
The bottom line is that I am very different in thinking than my parents and I feel absolutely powerless against them. Every time I am home, I just want to scream at them because of their judgmental exclamations. The first place I have ever felt like i fit in is at my college and I genuinely feel that it is my home now… But since I can't always be there I feel just so overwhelmed with the facade I have to put on while at home. Everytime I am come home, my mom says that she missed me SO much, but I just don't feel the same way. My parents also try and control everything I do, my mom watches my Facebook feed from her own account, they call me unexpectedly at random times asking me what my plans are.
I just have never felt comfortable in my parents home and really don't feel that i relate to them at all… I just get so overwhelmed wight his sometimes… Sorry for the rant, thanks for listening…
I generally don't exactly get along with my family as we don't always see eye to eye on things. Because some of my friends go back to school earlier than I do, we decried to get together a couple times. Each of the three times I was doing things with my friends my mother calls me at midnight so that I can come home and get a good night sleep so i'm not irritable in the morning… This is where I will add in that I am rarely irritable in the morning! I then go home and she says that she can't sleep well if I'm not in my bed at home… I have been gone for five months now and she seems to sleep fine.
So even now that I am in college my parents still treat me like I'm in high school.
Then anytime they see someone with a tattoo or piercings other than female earlobes,(I'm a guy, btw) they start talking about how they look like hoodlums and their parents should be ashamed. I have never had a problem with peircings or tattoos because I talk with people who have them and know their reasonings and Have even considered getting both myself… The one thing that holds me back is that my parents will basically disown me if I do get them. I hate that they are so judgmental about them and I feel powerless to state my opinion.
Then all through childhood, my parents always told me to follow the rules and laws and not drink until 21, etc. So I NEVER did anything illegal at home because I felt that they would get me in massive trouble, at college I have drank alcohol and smoked weed, neither to excess. And it turns out now that they were always expecting me to at least drink in high school. But they still assume that I don't drink and I don't want to tell them that I do, but they want me to know… I get really torn apart about this…
The bottom line is that I am very different in thinking than my parents and I feel absolutely powerless against them. Every time I am home, I just want to scream at them because of their judgmental exclamations. The first place I have ever felt like i fit in is at my college and I genuinely feel that it is my home now… But since I can't always be there I feel just so overwhelmed with the facade I have to put on while at home. Everytime I am come home, my mom says that she missed me SO much, but I just don't feel the same way. My parents also try and control everything I do, my mom watches my Facebook feed from her own account, they call me unexpectedly at random times asking me what my plans are.
I just have never felt comfortable in my parents home and really don't feel that i relate to them at all… I just get so overwhelmed wight his sometimes… Sorry for the rant, thanks for listening…