Lifesreject
October 18th, 2007, 12:00 PM
I had been seeing this boy for 6 nearly 7 month and i was really in 2 him. He always told me how much he loved me and that he would never leave me and i was his world.
Then we were on a school trip 2 Cambridge Univesity and we were stayin over. We had been bowling and were then allowed 2 stay in each others room until 12. So there was a group of us in his room till then. I went bk down 2 my room when we had 2 and he amediatly started textin me it was the normal stuff telling me how much he loved me and would never leave ma and I was doing the same. I then went on to ask him if he wanted 2 come down to my room in about an hour when the teachers had gone to bed as a group were coming in to my room. He said he dint think he would so i just went ok.
Next morning when we got he said he was so tierd because he had spent 2 hours on the phone to this other girl. I was ok about that because im not bothered if he talks to other girls. We sat together on the bus going home but all the way back he sat with his back to me and dint tickle me back like normal. When we got off the coach he just set off to walk home, so i shouted after him dont i get a hug. He came bk and gave me a hug but said You dont get a kiss. I thought this strange as he is normally happy to kiss me.
That night i got a text message sayinng im really sorry but i just want to be friends. I no will be really upset but im sorry. It's just that i dont get to see you enough. I was devastated when i got this message and cried myself to sleep. The next morning my best friend came up to me and showed me a message which was from my ex and said i really want to finish cat (me) because i really like laura(the girl he had been on the phone to) I really like laura and at Cambridge she spent the night in my room and we didnt do anything but we were really close to kissing. I ran out of the room in tears because it upset me that much.
I later talked to him on MSN and he told me the truth he said he really like laura and wanted to ask her out. He said yes it was true she had spent the night in his room but they didnt do anything. He asked me if he could ask her out and i said yes because i have my pride. Then laura text me and asked me if it was ok if they got together again I said yes. And that night he asked her out. Less than 24 hours after breaking up with me.
At school the next day they were all over each other kissing and constantly all over each other. I could watch them and walked away with tears in my eyes. People at school still say they are like they are super glued together and even his best friends cant be there when they are together.
It has been just over a month now and i still cant get over him. We camped out at a freinds the other day and had been drinking when he came up to me and hugged me. This isnt strange because he sometimes does this from time to time. But whennhe had hugged me he tried to kiss me, I pushed him away and told him I he had a girlfriend and to stop.
Today at school he hugged me again and I just wanted to hold on forever. I really love him. He was with his girlfriend again at lunch and i just cant watch them it makes me want to cry even if he isnt holdin her just stood next to her. My heart flutters when he hugs me and i dont think i can be friends any more it hurts to much. People have told me it will get better but it isnt its getting worse and i really dont no what to do. I cant tell him how I feel or anyone else because they will just laff. I have told one friend who i would trust with my laff but they just said you will get over it.
I really dont no what to do. Please help!!!!:cry2:
Then we were on a school trip 2 Cambridge Univesity and we were stayin over. We had been bowling and were then allowed 2 stay in each others room until 12. So there was a group of us in his room till then. I went bk down 2 my room when we had 2 and he amediatly started textin me it was the normal stuff telling me how much he loved me and would never leave ma and I was doing the same. I then went on to ask him if he wanted 2 come down to my room in about an hour when the teachers had gone to bed as a group were coming in to my room. He said he dint think he would so i just went ok.
Next morning when we got he said he was so tierd because he had spent 2 hours on the phone to this other girl. I was ok about that because im not bothered if he talks to other girls. We sat together on the bus going home but all the way back he sat with his back to me and dint tickle me back like normal. When we got off the coach he just set off to walk home, so i shouted after him dont i get a hug. He came bk and gave me a hug but said You dont get a kiss. I thought this strange as he is normally happy to kiss me.
That night i got a text message sayinng im really sorry but i just want to be friends. I no will be really upset but im sorry. It's just that i dont get to see you enough. I was devastated when i got this message and cried myself to sleep. The next morning my best friend came up to me and showed me a message which was from my ex and said i really want to finish cat (me) because i really like laura(the girl he had been on the phone to) I really like laura and at Cambridge she spent the night in my room and we didnt do anything but we were really close to kissing. I ran out of the room in tears because it upset me that much.
I later talked to him on MSN and he told me the truth he said he really like laura and wanted to ask her out. He said yes it was true she had spent the night in his room but they didnt do anything. He asked me if he could ask her out and i said yes because i have my pride. Then laura text me and asked me if it was ok if they got together again I said yes. And that night he asked her out. Less than 24 hours after breaking up with me.
At school the next day they were all over each other kissing and constantly all over each other. I could watch them and walked away with tears in my eyes. People at school still say they are like they are super glued together and even his best friends cant be there when they are together.
It has been just over a month now and i still cant get over him. We camped out at a freinds the other day and had been drinking when he came up to me and hugged me. This isnt strange because he sometimes does this from time to time. But whennhe had hugged me he tried to kiss me, I pushed him away and told him I he had a girlfriend and to stop.
Today at school he hugged me again and I just wanted to hold on forever. I really love him. He was with his girlfriend again at lunch and i just cant watch them it makes me want to cry even if he isnt holdin her just stood next to her. My heart flutters when he hugs me and i dont think i can be friends any more it hurts to much. People have told me it will get better but it isnt its getting worse and i really dont no what to do. I cant tell him how I feel or anyone else because they will just laff. I have told one friend who i would trust with my laff but they just said you will get over it.
I really dont no what to do. Please help!!!!:cry2: