Always depressed..

[youtasd]

Read the edit please!
Hey there. I'm 16 years old and for the past 3-4 years I always feel depressed.
First of all, I have no life as they say. I come back from school, to the PC and game untill I have to go to sleep. It was all like that untill the start of this year, when I finally made friends, got a girlfriend and after around two months somebody told lies that I hated them all and they never spoke with me again.
Anyway, to say the truth I'm socially awkward, pretty ugly I'd say, and so on.
I'm not sure how it goes for the others, but my first kiss was 1 month ago, with also my first GF.
So after I told a bit about myself, I am always depressed that I won't ever meet a girl that'll love me or that I'll even have kids/marry. I know I'm young, but I always have trouble with girls, and my looks won't help, either.
I started skipping school, I always have the feeling that I'm not wanted in life, also had the feeling of suicide and one time I almost did if not for an old lady that called the police. I met a girl which cuts herself and I was thinking maybe I should start too. Maybe it will really help my situation.
Is it normal? Not normal? Any advices?
Excuse me if I'm not clear enough, I have problems explaining things.
Thank you.
2nd jan edit: Well I skipped school today too, and as it seems I am getting expelled from school. No education for me, no bright future either. I started cutting, it doesn't help either. I think ending it all would be a much better choice.
Any help/advices or I should just do it?

[Noirtier]

Please, for your own sake, do NOT cut. Self harm soon becomes an addiction, that you feel you can't do without. It's not something that you want to get involved in. I would advise you to talk to a counselor, even one at school, to help you deal with all these things that you've been struggling with. Write and do some art to help get your feelings out, but do NOT cut. I've struggled with self harm for a while myself, and I can tell you that it's not worth it. It's not worth the struggle, the difficulty, the battle. The heartache, the addiction. It's incredibly hard to stop once you've started, just like with any addiction, so I would strongly advise you against it. Please talk with a counselor who can help you through this, and help you begin to get over your depression. They're trained in helping people through these things, and they are the ones who will be able to help you most. We're always here if you need help and we will always support you and talk to you if you need to talk, but I would still encourage you to go see someone.

[youtasd]

There's one at our school, but she won't help that's for sure. I already tried talking to one last year, didn't help at all.

[qwertygirl]

Hey, I know this must be really hard, so I'm not going to act as if it can just get better with a counselor or something.
But I DO think you should get a psychiatrist so that they can prescribe something to you so that it can help. No, medication won't take care of all your problems, but it will get you feeling a little bit lighter so that you can think about yourself in a not-so negative light. It think that also talking to someone who will not judge you at all will help, because then you won't feel alone.
As for your social-awkwardness, I'm starting to have the same problems, and I hate it. i stay on the computer in my bedroom all day. My mom is starting to not really like me because of it.
Anyway, I think that you should try to stay optimistic as well, by surrounding yourself with positive words (ex: "I love myself" or "I'm worth it" or "I'm handsome"). You probably won't believe yourself at first, and maybe not for a long time, but if you think these thoughts at least once a day, you'll start to believe it, just like when you start calling yourself ugly. And I bet you're gorgeous, so please don't be so sad about your looks. However, if there is anything that you can change, like your weight or style, go for it! But make sure that you are staying healthy, because in the end that's what matters.

And PLEASE DO NOT CUT. I started scratching about a month ago and I haven't stopped. No, I don't do it often at all, but I knew it could never be a "one time thing." Nothing ever is. So please don't cut, please don't kill yourself, because you're worth it and I want you here.

Also, tell your parents that you need help. That's always the first step. You also have to be very open with them so that you can get the help you need. If you truly want to get better, if you truly want to not feel bad about yourself anymore, you have to be open to your parents and the help that they try to get you.

[youtasd]

I followed your and other advices, and talked to two people who don't judge me and try to help. Sadly, I think that they told other people about my problems, and since all my (ex) friends hate me they are happy about my situation, which makes me much, much more depressed.
I'm not overweight, infact I'm around 45-50 kilos which is very, very skinny imo. But I just cannot gain weight no matter how much I eat.
Leaving that aside, I know that girls like confident men, but sadly besides my behaviour ( trying my best to be a gentleman, always complement and make girls laugh ) there's nothing good about me that can attract girls. I have my style which girls seem to like, but it doesn't seem to help anyway.
I can't go to a psychiatrist because first of all I can't ask my parents, I just don't think I can handle the shame when my parents think that I'm mentally ill and need one.
As for now I'm smoking hookah and it seems to help, but I just cannot stand this feeling that I'm a complete loser.

[youtasd]

I got kicked out of school for skipping it, to be accurate not expelled but moved to a class which doesn't qualify for the finals, I'm not sure how it is in other countries ( I'm from Israel ) without a certificate that I passed all finals I won't have a good job. Minimum wage for the rest of my life, if I'll get a job at all.
I started cutting today aswell, it doesn't seem to do anything. I think just ending it all is the best option right now.
Any advices or I should just do it?