I don't know what to do

[RakshaMalayka]

So, almost 3 years ago I moved here and I was already self harming and the move did nothing to help. I got worse and turned from just cutting to cutting, burning, and beating myself to the point where it took forever for the bruises to go away. It took a while but I finally made friends who accepted me for who I am and even understood some of what I was going through. Until then though I was basically alone. Mum never asked me my opinion on moving cuz I don't have a choice in moving anyway.
Well anyway, I keep falling back into cutting and mum dropped the news on me that we're moving to Montana after tax returns. She isn't bothering to ask how I feel about it and honestly I'm not sure if I can survive another move. I finally don't feel alone and I'm starting to get better, it's easier to resist. I know that if we move its going to be the same way it was. My cuts are going to get deeper, I'm going to feel all alone once more..... Mum never tries to understand me anyway so I feel alone at home even. And I don't know how to break this news to my friends. One of my bestfriends was with me when mum started telling me and he was crushed. It was one of the only times I've seen him cry. He said that if I leave he's going to be alone. I can only imagine my other friends' reactions, my other bestfriend's reaction.

I just don't know what to do anymore.....

[Noirtier]

I'm sorry that moving is so rough on you, I know it can be a really rough time, and is a difficult experience for a lot of people. It's going to be incredibly hard telling your friends, but you're going to have to do it. Nothing is saying you guys can't keep in contact though--some of my closest friends are those who I am keep contact with online or through the phone, just because you move doesn't mean you have to leave them behind forever. Now, as for coping with the move, it can be very tough, and I think that, considering how hard it was on you last time, that when you move this time you should see a counselor, even if it's just at school, to help you through the process mentally/emotionally. It's clear to me that you weren't able to handle it on your own last time in a healthy manner, and a counselor can help you cope with the move in a healthy manner, without having to resort to self harm like you did last time. I highly recommend you see one both before and after you move, even if it's just your counselor at school. Good luck, and if you ever need to talk we're all here to help and support you! :hug3: