suicidal

[HandheldOutlaw]

i cant do this anymore. i really really really cant and i dont think ill last the night. everything from this past year is building and building and building and its finally pushing me to the edge.
everything hurts. my entire body hurts. all i want to do is sleep. im tired and i want the feelings to go away.
my skin is burning i need to cut so badly. i dont know why i like the feeling but it never hurts. it feels like home
it feels almost like love.
my entire body feels sad. i know it makes no sense. it's just... that feeling in your eyes when you know you're about to cry. thats how i feel all over.
i want it gone. i want to be gone. i wish i was never born.
i don't want to die i just know i cant carry on like this
im fat and im ugly and im horrible and i hate myself. i deserve this. i fucking deserve to die

im sorry everyone

[Shade]

If you do it now, you won't have the chance to see things get better. And they do... they always do. It's seems so difficult right now, but it's worth it in the end. Think about your family, about those who care about you...

I care about you and I really wish you didn't feel this way. I hope you're still there tomorrow and I wish I could say something...anything to make it better; to give you something to hold onto.

You don't deserve to die. You deserve to be happy and find people who can help you through this. When I'm suicidal I just try and hold onto pieces of happiness I can remember and fall asleep. When the morning comes you have a fresh day to look at, and another chance for healing.

Please...don't give up your life.

[HandheldOutlaw]

i dont think they will this time. they cant. i dont know whats worth it anymore. i dont know if anything is worth it anymore. its just hopeless.
my family wouldn't care. they kicked me out. they'd be glad im gone. im not worth it. ive messed up so much. im messed up.


thanks so much.

[Mikec3257]

Please don't do anything. I know exactly what your going through. I've gone through it before. What I did was I told someone who I least expected to care. If you can't tell someone then go to the police or a school counselor because they know the signs of someone being suicidal. So many people care. They don't have to know you and you don't have to know them. They always care. They are always there to help you. You can call different hotlines to get help. Please. Seek help.

[Shade]

We all mess up. We're human... Everyone has made mistakes, but we have to work through them. You're not expected to live life perfectly, and even when you screw up there will be people who care about you. Always.

[Mirage]

Please. Don't do it. You may not realize, but your family DOES love you, even if they may not show it. Stick around, and see the light at the end of the tunnel. Things get better.