ackmedsgirl666
December 27th, 2012, 11:04 PM
Hey guys!
So basically I never thought I would ever come to this point of life but I've had thoughts of becoming anorexic and that's because I am not happy with my body
I look in the mirror and think what a disgusting fat pig. How could you do this to yourself. How did you let yourself go. I wasn't always fat
No there was a time I was in decent shape size 16 pants and had a small chest and petite face but that all changed
When I went through my depression I ate
And I ate alot and I became inactive
I am so disgusted with myself that I just wanna starve myself to death
I wanted to first wait to see if I was pregnant because if I was
I didn't wanna harm the baby. No knowing that I am not I have begun anorexia
My body is now a wreck
I eat and the second I eat I feel Naseous and wanna throw up but never can
I wanna be thin I hate his body.....
My boyfriend says he likes me the way I am rolls, stretch marks and all but idk if he really means it. I wanna be thin
And if puking is the way to go so be it :'(
people please dont judge me.. unless you know my story and what i have been through in the past year then dont come on here (or neg rep me) because someone gave me neg rep because i cant just become anorexix. let me rephrase something
its something i have been battling for a little bit... but didnt wanna bring it to anybodys attention until now
this is the first tiem i have mentioned it to anybody.
So basically I never thought I would ever come to this point of life but I've had thoughts of becoming anorexic and that's because I am not happy with my body
I look in the mirror and think what a disgusting fat pig. How could you do this to yourself. How did you let yourself go. I wasn't always fat
No there was a time I was in decent shape size 16 pants and had a small chest and petite face but that all changed
When I went through my depression I ate
And I ate alot and I became inactive
I am so disgusted with myself that I just wanna starve myself to death
I wanted to first wait to see if I was pregnant because if I was
I didn't wanna harm the baby. No knowing that I am not I have begun anorexia
My body is now a wreck
I eat and the second I eat I feel Naseous and wanna throw up but never can
I wanna be thin I hate his body.....
My boyfriend says he likes me the way I am rolls, stretch marks and all but idk if he really means it. I wanna be thin
And if puking is the way to go so be it :'(
people please dont judge me.. unless you know my story and what i have been through in the past year then dont come on here (or neg rep me) because someone gave me neg rep because i cant just become anorexix. let me rephrase something
its something i have been battling for a little bit... but didnt wanna bring it to anybodys attention until now
this is the first tiem i have mentioned it to anybody.