Need advice, confused!!!!!

[DomTheLadyKiller]

Hey everyone.
Ok so here's my delema.
I started watching porn about 2 years ago in grade 7. I loved it! I first started with Lesbian S&M stuff. It was a real turn on! I watched straight, and lesbian porn for about 1 and a half years now! Until I had an urge to watch Gay porn. The first time I did it I was mad at myself. It felt so weird. I always had fell in love with women before..... I still am! But I still watch gay porn......
I'm in love with this Hot grade 8 chick, and I think she likes me too..... I've fantasised about her before. I've had urges to kiss women when I'm right beside them and I've had to bit my lip, cross my legs, and pinch my forearm to stop me from lashing out and kissing her. I've never had that with a man. I've fantasised about men. But I always feel guilty. I wouldn't be mad if I was gay. Would I?
Now idk what to do. I actually thought it was a phase when it went away for a week. But now it's back. The urge. And every time I beat off its a little harder to get turned on. A councillor I saw recently said "you masturbate to much, it distils your mind and makes you go more extreme."
I've never fell in love with a man. Or wanted to! I'm In grade 9 now.
Maybe I'm bi? Idk can you guys help?
Additional Details: I masturbate 2-4 times a day every day for 2 years. I know that's too much!
I'm an average weight, good looking guy! Well according to the girls at my school.
I'm rather popular and well respected in my school and am happy in my social stature.
I'm in love with a 8 grade blonde girl.
No homophobic thoughts ever.
Slightly attracted to a cirtain 9th grade male, but more in a way as I envy him. Not sleep with him. That makes me sick to my stomach.
Never fallen in love with a man.
I'm a smart intellectual.
Unsure of myself
Help please comment on what u think I am and help with how I can stop this!!!!

[sdude]

Wow, sorry u are having such a struggle with yourself. I think you are putting way too much weight on your fantasies...Give yourself a break, enjoy what you seem to enjoy and stop worrying so much! If you are gay, straight or bi....your feelings will sort themselves out, it takes time and meeting the right person, that you both fall in love with AND am sexually attracted to that will lead you where u are to be. Hormones are driving some of it, I don't think a counselor helped you with the "you masturbate too much", unless it is holding you back from school activities or personal contact with friends and family, there just is no set "number"...If you can, share your feelings with a close friend, see if they aren't having some of the same issues...good luck my friend..nobody said puberty was easy...

[Sabercat]

I'm kind of the same way, i know I'm not gay, I don't like guys. But i do beat off to gay porn or dudes in speedos... There is nothing wrong with you, you are just curious! I think that a lot of 14-15 year olds are!

[Straya]

I think you are over thinking your fantasies and are just curious

[MickeyMouse13]

I think everyone at this age gets slightly curious, it's nothing to be worried about, and all your mates are probably thinking the same :)

[Gay-tony]

You are just discovering what you like, nothing wrong with that :)

[xStar64]

Well it seems that you just are a bit curious. A lot of hormones are coursing through you and this stuff is natural.

Stop watching porn if you can. That's kind of... illegal.

[dan8854]

Hey man you sound really confused. And frustrated with yourself. I just encourage you to take some deep breaths and realize that life can be confusing and frustrating. Be proud of who you are but don't live in denial. Take time to figure things out...honestly with yourself. And don't do things for others. Do it for yourself.

[Pyro99]

Buddy, you're definetely over reacting. You're like, 2 years older than me and I have the exact same problem, and nearly every guy our age does. It's just hormones, it doesn't mean you're gay. Even if you had the urge to touch the cock of a friend of yours, or even give him a blowjob it doesn't mean you're gay.

[Bradley 97]

don't worry man every one through those ages get quite curious and just your hormones get going and you look at any one and find it sexy its ok just go with them for now and see where it leads you.... if need any help you can always pm me

[Dxkilla]

Don't worry, your just curious! I know how you feel, where your attracted to a guy in a jealous way, not a sexual way. I get that.

[sartbimpson55]

I think this happens to every teen most of the time I'm turned on the most by women and every once in a while I get turned on by guys

[SmartTee]

Find yourself ! You will be completed once you find it :)

[chrisf55]

It's just your hormones that make you do that. For me what helps controlling urges to lash out like that, just masturbate more so you feel less compelled to releive yourself.

[DerBear]

Please don't bump old threads :locked: