Do I have anxiety?

[Blueeyes]

Ok so recently I've been having troubles. I was never the social one, I was quiet and very timid with people... unless they were super close to me. This hasn't been a problem for me, I enjoy being alone sometimes to gather my thoughts and just to think. Anyways, so I go to a high school where all the courses are online, they have it set up so you work at your own pace... if you are a fast and efficient student getting assignments in and such, you can get your courses off you back easily. The first year in grade 9 I worked a steady pace, slow, but steady.... it happens to everyone their first year because you need to get used to it.

Anyways, so grade 10 and I'm still working on my grade 9 courses! (well, I have 1 left) This has been a huge burden on my back. It was only recently that I've noticed tingling all over my body, like sometimes it feels like something small is crawling quickly up my leg or up my back. I'm a good student, haven't got into much trouble at all and liked by all my teachers but I'm slow! xD

My school psychologist is a very understanding person, I've been thinking of asking her opinion after the holidays.

So here is my life story, both parents are divorced and my dad has a mental problem when he had an accident when someone beat him. He is also an alcoholic. Don't get my wrong, I love my Dad very much.... but when he gets drunk, he acts like a 5 year old and very annoying... (hes not a violent drunk). My mom is sort of old fashioned I guess you would say it, she is somewhat strict. Any time she brings up my courses, she always ends up making me cry. She doesn't know it, but I go to my room and cry. I'm more mad of myself for not completing the courses on time.

Recently I've had a girlfriend. I'm in love with her, well I'm pretty sure I am. She's everything to me. She always makes me happy and knows what to say, we are both not sexually active nor will we be in the future (Until marriage). She has really helped me in school, she's a honor student... I'm the academic student who's like stuck in the 60-75 percentile range. I suck at math too xD. I have never really told her about my problems.

People consider me smart, street smart I guess. I can fix anything that works mechanically and very good with computers :). I tend to be the person who can take any punch to the stomach, I don't exactly get hurt easily... I'll die for any one of my loved ones in a heart-beat though.

I originally thought this was a phase of depression. Then I found anxiety on google, did a few Anxiety-quizes and came out to moderate anxiety. What do I do now? lol. I'm not very close with either one of my parents, but I can talk to the psychologist about anything. Should I talk to her?

My parents don't know much about my girlfriend, they sort of got the hint when I started talking about her... but never stated the fact that we are in a relationship. I'm thinking I'll talk to my Mom about her, she likes her, and maybe I can go to her house sometime during the holiday. My girlfriend is the only one that can really bring me back to reality and calm me down and feel comforted. I wish I was around her all the time, rather than just skyping her and texting her.

Edit - I'm also not the type of person who smiles a lot. My Mom has said I give off a angry vibe and has asked me at one point if i'm angry at someone. I do not have ADHD, or ADD, or anything that I know of.

[dBxdt]

I ain't no pro here, but I think talking to school psychologist sure can't hurt. If nothing else you get it off your chest, makes it feel a bit better even if it doesn't solve the problem.

Can't really say if it's anxiety. It doesn't sound like your situation at home is something to be happy about, definitely can't make you feel good. I guess it's about how you react around other people. If you just prefer to stay alone, there's nothing wrong with it, but if you fear contacting people, that's another story. Either way, sounds to me more like it's just home situation that's troubling you. That and school perhaps. But if you're confident you can make it, if you can pick up the pace in next years then great. You only have one course from 9th grade left. Not brilliant, but you're not way behind, so I'm positive you can make it.

What you can do now is somehow try not to let home situation burden you so much. I know it's hard, I know you can't do it completely, but you can try, and maybe toughen up if just a little bit. And do talk to psychologist, sure she can come up with something nice. :) Good luck!

[Blueeyes]

I ain't no pro here, but I think talking to school psychologist sure can't hurt. If nothing else you get it off your chest, makes it feel a bit better even if it doesn't solve the problem.

Can't really say if it's anxiety. It doesn't sound like your situation at home is something to be happy about, definitely can't make you feel good. I guess it's about how you react around other people. If you just prefer to stay alone, there's nothing wrong with it, but if you fear contacting people, that's another story. Either way, sounds to me more like it's just home situation that's troubling you. That and school perhaps. But if you're confident you can make it, if you can pick up the pace in next years then great. You only have one course from 9th grade left. Not brilliant, but you're not way behind, so I'm positive you can make it.

What you can do now is somehow try not to let home situation burden you so much. I know it's hard, I know you can't do it completely, but you can try, and maybe toughen up if just a little bit. And do talk to psychologist, sure she can come up with something nice. :) Good luck!

Thanks for the reply :)

Its more of a combination of both school and home. Being so overwhelmed I guess, creates a mindblock at school. Thanks

[dBxdt]

It does that. Especially if you feel like they wanna tear you apart. Had that myself. If you can't find peace anywhere. Should give a little time off to do what you truly love to do. Something productive, but where you can get some rest from other troubles.

Good for one's confidence. If you have time to do it, ofc. Every day an hour or two or at least every week. Gets you relaxed as well. Also, just a hint: don't slack school-wise. Ever. If you don't like it or if doesn't work for you, change it or anything if you can. Just don't slack or take some time off, it's so hard to get back in rhythm. One thing is working slower on it, but to completely stop for a while is a disaster. Unless it's supereasy xD

[tubanic]

Definately talk to your psychiartrist about it, they can only help you if you tell them everything. It's probable you're suffering from a stress related illness, especially considering your home situation :(
yeah, talk things over with them
hope you're ok :)

[AuthorX303720]

Yes, you do have anexity. Like me :) Don't worry there are plenty of people who are anxious. You are simply overloaded.....may I prescribe and wholesome scoop of hanging out with your girlfriend and get to know her better :) Trust me things get better down the road. -Message me if you want to talk

[Blueeyes]

Thanks for the support and help guys.
I'm not too worried about it now as I was. Maybe I'm simply over-reacting on this? Who knows lol.

I hate seeing my father drunk though, it's not exactly something I want to witness. Just seeing him like that makes me sick. I don't see my father very often, but sometimes when I do, he is drunk, which is upsetting.

All this witnessing has basically made me anti-alcohol.

And for my girlfriend, I go to my dad's most weekends, so I rarely get to see her on weekends. The only time I get to see her is at school, which is nice because I can look at her and we can talk anytime we want. But - we don't get 'alone' time, you know? Lol

But anyways, I seem to be fine right now. :)