I can hardly move.

[MrVanity]

I don't know how to discribe what i feel so here it all i can think of.
I want to

Watch old episodes of degrassi online

Clean my room
take a shower
Do my hair like jayy von monroe
dance to music
write something other than shitty postes about my life
read skulduggery pleasnt
pretty much anything that makes me feel happy or put together (see above)


I have the energy to


Sleep
lie down
sit up
complete simple tasks (post, watch youtube clips)


I can't think of anything else to say.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

I know how you feel... It hurts to get moving. Drink some soda if you got any or something that can pep you up. Or just chill then give it a shot, I really suck at doing stuff personally.

[MrVanity]

I know how you feel... It hurts to get moving. Drink some soda if you got any or something that can pep you up. Or just chill then give it a shot, I really suck at doing stuff personally.

Thanks for the reply. Any movement i make feels heavy, slow and clumsy. It would be so easy to just sleep. But i know if i let myself sleep i'm not going to do any holiday prep today or tomorrow. If i'm unprepared for christmas with my fam i will feel worse. so i'm not letting myself sleep. I'm trying to keep doing simple tasks and work my way up. So i'll keep typing and watching videos, maybe play some music and just work my way up to doing something. I hope.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Thanks for the reply. Any movement i make feels heavy, slow and clumsy. It would be so easy to just sleep. But i know if i let myself sleep i'm not going to do any holiday prep today or tomorrow. If i'm unprepared for christmas with my fam i will feel worse. so i'm not letting myself sleep. I'm trying to keep doing simple tasks and work my way up. So i'll keep typing and watching videos, maybe play some music and just work my way up to doing something. I hope.

Sounds like how I feel right now! And with my holiday... But what you should do music wise, put some Marilyn Manson on. If you like him or not, it will get you going.

[MrVanity]

Sounds like how I feel right now! And with my holiday... But what you should do music wise, put some Marilyn Manson on. If you like him or not, it will get you going.

Marily manson really does help.
I seem to be in a listing mood now so this is what i think i can do today

Clean up for fam
Clean myself up


If i do that to avoid crashing right after instead of sleeping i will

Watch degrassi reruns online (am i the only one on here who loves that show)
Read
I wont sleep till a reasonable hour


^wow first time i acutally used the goal seating format my shrink keeps bugging me about.

Not sure how much of that i will stick to but i'll try.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Marily manson really does help.
I seem to be in a listing mood now so this is what i think i can do today

Clean up for fam
Clean myself up


If i do that to avoid crashing right after instead of sleeping i will

Watch degrassi reruns online (am i the only one on here who loves that show)
Read
I wont sleep till a reasonable hour


^wow first time i acutally used the goal seating format my shrink keeps bugging me about.

Not sure how much of that i will stick to but i'll try.

Awesome! Ive not seen Degrassi... I know what it is but i havent see it. :P And yes listing stuff out really can help, putting it down and seeing it help your mind settle and understand it.

[qwertygirl]

this is exactly how I am. I have very little energy to be productive if I'm not around lots of people (like at school) that expect me to be the peppy person they know me to be. I really only ever feel like sleeping, eating, laying down, thinking about death, and going online. But mostly going online. I don't know if I'm suicidal at all, but lately death seems like a white fluffy cloud that I'd like to lay on. But I don't know. I hope that you can get better, I'm working on doing that for myself. I want to be normal, but I've reached a comfort zone in my own room. It sucks, but i hope you don't get stuck where I am. Best of luck.

[tubanic]

For now, stick to small things that make you happy and keep you going. But I know it gets really difficult when you feel no real point to life, no point to living until the next day. You need to find a reason, and when you do, you'll feel so much better.
Hope you're ok :)

[IVIodern]

This is how I feel on School days. I go to school full of energy and when I come home it is like I haven't slept in about 50 hours. Out of the 5 day 'school week' this may happen 3 times. It really sucks and I hate it.
Although now that I think of it, this happened during 2 of my Christmas exams. In the morning exam I was fine and doing it but when it came to the next exam I felt like complete shit and didn't do any of it, just lay on the table and done next to nothing.