I have no words for this. (Strange encounter)

[MrVanity]

I have absolutly no words for what happend to me today so heres my story.

I had been out drinking with my friends the night before, i haden't been home in two days and i was crashing. I was sitting is a library, putting off going home and just chilling. I had a tee on because its summer and i haven't really cared about showing my scars lately (to out of it to care). A very big,tough looking Maori guy started yelling at me "AY girl ay girl look at me." I was worried because the library i was in is really just for homeless people and junkies (hence i was there) He came right up to me and rolled up his sleves to show me his very bad, but healed scars. Then he said "it works out" and flashed a gang sign, smiling.

I was shocked, i had no idea how to react, and my anxiety was through the roof.

[Noirtier]

That's either really cool, or really freaky. My first impression, though, is that he, in his own odd way, was trying to tell you that things really do get better. That eventually, everything really does work out. Now, I'm not sure if he did this just to be nice, or if he's trying to recruit people for his gang, as you said he flashed a gang sign afterwards. I'm not sure what happened after that so I wouldn't be able to tell you which it probably is. However, that's beside the point right now. Because the thing is, either way, he's right. Things do get better hun, they do work out in the end. I know self harm addiction is a very tough thing--I've gone through it myself, and really still am. It can get very bad very quickly, and just like any addiction it's incredibly hard to quit--and in this case incredibly easy to satisfy the urges one feels. But, just heed his words and mine: Things get better. There is hope in this situation. If you ever need us, we're always here to support you and help you! :hug3:

[jayyy-lmao]

I agree with Noirtier

[MrVanity]

I should elaborate, where i live gang signs like the one he did are very common and not thretining. I was just shocked because he looks like the kinnda guy who would heckle me for something like that. You should never show weakness, cutting makes me look weak. I thought he would be looking for a fight or to just yell at me. I have had people say to me, "If ya wanna cut yourself ima do it for ya" tha kinnda thing so i was surprised.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

I should elaborate, where i live gang signs like the one he did are very common and not thretining. I was just shocked because he looks like the kinnda guy who would heckle me for something like that. You should never show weakness, cutting makes me look weak. I thought he would be looking for a fight or to just yell at me. I have had people say to me, "If ya wanna cut yourself ima do it for ya" tha kinnda thing so i was surprised.

Guessing you live in the city... It sounds scary there... I hate cites and I live in the woods. I cut too, my arm at the moment is, bad. If you cut, you arent a weak person. You, me, others have fought hard through alot and cutting is our way to cope many times or feel something. It doesnt mean we are weak, all of us are strong and we fall into something bad, being cutting. Someone who doesnt cut or doesnt understand it and I have had it happen to me they say stuff like "How can you cut yourself like that?! Its wrong and disgusting!" Well yeah, its not something we love to do, or wanted to pick up. But its not something a normal person can do, take a razor and drag it while pressing into their skin. Youre a strong person, wither others see it or not. Just be safe out there.

[MrVanity]

Guessing you live in the city... It sounds scary there... I hate cites and I live in the woods. I cut too, my arm at the moment is, bad. If you cut, you arent a weak person. You, me, others have fought hard through alot and cutting is our way to cope many times or feel something. It doesnt mean we are weak, all of us are strong and we fall into something bad, being cutting. Someone who doesnt cut or doesnt understand it and I have had it happen to me they say stuff like "How can you cut yourself like that?! Its wrong and disgusting!" Well yeah, its not something we love to do, or wanted to pick up. But its not something a normal person can do, take a razor and drag it while pressing into their skin. Youre a strong person, wither others see it or not. Just be safe out there.

I know my strenght. I live in auckland, i could comepare it to a very small version of New York. There are good areas and bad areas, people who pay 20 grand a year for school and people who barly make the minimum donation for a public school. I live is a middle class area, where my house is is farly safe. I go to school is a poorer area and spend most of my time in the worse parts of the inner city. I'm used to how things are there. So i know even if i'm not weak cutting makes me look it. Weak = target. So just because this guy was so wildly outside my scope of how people behave in that area it shocked me.

[survivor]

I don't live in the city, but I go to school and shop in the city. My middle school was in a bad part of town and I got into a lot of fights. There I was judged for my cuts, like you didn't get those fighting you did that yourself, let me have a go at you if you wanna hurt yourself. That type of stuff. Now I go to high school in a good part of town and I'm not looked down on for it as much. Its weird, in the parts of the city where I got into trouble, got arrested, made friends, and went to school my scars were bad, but in the nice parts of town their not that bad to people.

[Imfeelinglostagain]

Thats really cool that he had the guts to do that! I'd give him a hug :P

[MrVanity]

Thats really cool that he had the guts to do that! I'd give him a hug :P

Just because he was nice i wouldn't hug him. He may have been nice but hugging him just isn't how people act where i live.

[Imfeelinglostagain]

@MrVanity

You're right...that might come off as creepy