Dont know if this actually happend or was a dream [Archive]

Columbus

December 18th, 2012, 01:15 AM

So this memory I have had with me for a long time has been bugging me lately. Long story short, when I was a kid some time when I was in elementary school. My next door neighbor, who was a few years older than me occasionally would physically abuse me in some ways until he left many years ago. But for the most part I dont remember most of the things he did to me unless someone like my older sister would remind of somethings that happend. But this one abusive memory I have remembered with me and him for the longest time was when we were in my house with my mom and his mom in the kitchen talking while we were in my room playing with some toys. The next thing that I could remember was both of us running out crying to our moms with either mine or his arms covered in blood and that is it. But I dont know if he actually caused my arms to bleed because I dont know who was the one with there arms in blood because it was all a blur to me. But I do think my arm was the one bleeding and I know I would never even harm anyone like that now or then. I also know for sure he did hurt me before like hitting me with a stick and trying to choke me. And now I cant stand just the sight blood at all whether thats related or not.

For a long time that memory would always pop into my head a lot and bothered me during middle school, then I thought to myself that "maybe that was just a dream and didn't actually happen." Ever since then I dont know if it actually did happen. I know I could always ask my mom (who she was the only one there besides his mom who later left) but im to scared to ask her and find out if that did happen or if that was just a dream. What should I do.

tubanic

December 18th, 2012, 11:50 AM

Traumatic situations can often come back to our memories in dreams. That's what happened to me I remembered most of a sexual abuse incident I had suffered when I was 9 in a dream when I was 14. It's not unusual.
I think that seeing you've had this horrible vivid dream, you are prepared for the worst, and asking your mum, if you feel comfortable, is the right thing to do.
Unless you are a person who prefers not to know these things. But could you live with just not knowing? Ask yourself that and the answer is clear.