ComradeUnknown
December 14th, 2012, 10:03 PM
I do not normally consider myself a depressed person. Well, on a usual current basis, as I used to be really depressed and I currently feel now. I don't know how I can get help without telling my life story. So I'll try my best.
For the past 3.5 months, I have been trying to make a vivid change in most or all aspects of my life, that includes academically, socially, physically, and mentally. I was a bad student in 7th and most of 8th grade, but my grades seemed to have improved a lot in 9th. But then there's the counter to good grades: social life.
Sometimes I have this mental image of being able to place every classmate of mine on a chart of some kind based on two variables: Popularity and Academic Performance. Kind of like a basic line chart or something, where the more popular you are, the worse grades you have. Conversely, the better grades you have, the less popular you are. I've been trying very hard to disprove my own theory, and I seem to not be able to do it.
Thing is, my grades aren't the best, they're A- to B+ range. But the fact that I can't seem to disprove my own logic, and that I feel like I've made almost 0 change, it's given me such low esteem where I feel like I have no friends. I talk to certain kids in every single class, but I don't feel close to ANY of them.
Wow, I wrote a novel there, and I still don't think I've said a sufficient amount. Oh well.
If this is on the wrong forum, you may kindly move this, I wasn't sure which one to put it anyway.
For the past 3.5 months, I have been trying to make a vivid change in most or all aspects of my life, that includes academically, socially, physically, and mentally. I was a bad student in 7th and most of 8th grade, but my grades seemed to have improved a lot in 9th. But then there's the counter to good grades: social life.
Sometimes I have this mental image of being able to place every classmate of mine on a chart of some kind based on two variables: Popularity and Academic Performance. Kind of like a basic line chart or something, where the more popular you are, the worse grades you have. Conversely, the better grades you have, the less popular you are. I've been trying very hard to disprove my own theory, and I seem to not be able to do it.
Thing is, my grades aren't the best, they're A- to B+ range. But the fact that I can't seem to disprove my own logic, and that I feel like I've made almost 0 change, it's given me such low esteem where I feel like I have no friends. I talk to certain kids in every single class, but I don't feel close to ANY of them.
Wow, I wrote a novel there, and I still don't think I've said a sufficient amount. Oh well.
If this is on the wrong forum, you may kindly move this, I wasn't sure which one to put it anyway.