Rock Bottom

[Sudds3]

So ive made a few posts in the past week or two and it just feels like im quickly deteriorating. Like everyday i think is the worst day ever, then the next day js worse. I really dont want to have to live like this anymore. It seems like my friends hate me because ive been ignoring them cuz im depressed. It just feels like everything would be so much better for everyone if i was gone. Ive had a lot of thoughts of killing myself and cutting myself. Ive even started cutting, i think one of my friends saw the first day. But i hope not, i dont want anyone to know. Why cant it all just get better? I just dont want to live anymore

[tubanic]

Please, try to avert your suicidal thoughts. Tell a family member or phone a hel-line when you feel like that?
If these friends are ignoring you in your time of need and not helping with your depression, rest assured that there are people out there who care, and you will find them.
And when you feel suicidal, think how unhappy your family and friends and people who care about you will be if you die. Suicide has consequences.
PLease keep yourself safe :)

[Steve Jobs]

I feel ya dude. I'm a little different, in the sense that the people I want closest in my life always seem to be there when I'm in my high-points in life, or when they're in need, and disappear when I'm the one struggling.
I've been through contemplating suicide, but heck. It isn't the right of anyone to make your life down, and I decided to push through anyway, to find a goal I want to accomplish in my life. Being able to prove that I can find fulfillment in something I love doing has become the key.

You shouldn't think you don't belong, because you're here for a reason. I believe everyone of us was put on this earth to be something to someone, and you probably aren't even aware of that!