ackmedsgirl666
December 13th, 2012, 01:57 AM
This thread is for my friend who is also membered on here
His name: DarkWingedAngel
I recently did a bad thing. I made fun of him knowing how much it would hurt him. This person is transgendered and me knowing this made fun of him and called him a girl and used his female name. And to top it off I let my little sister mouth him off using my phone. My sister being 10 didn't know what she was saying but went too far and caused my friend to experience triggers
I feel so guilty although I'm blaming myself for all of this
Not giving the kid a break, texting him constant when I knew he was in school which he paid alot of money for..... And the. Trying to control him when he would have drinks on school nights not realizing that he was doing it to focus on his massive amounts of homework. I am a terrible person. I guarantee whoevers reading right now is probably disgusted with my behavior and your probably thinking that I deserve this to lose him as a friend. The reason why it's hard to let go is cause we have been best friends for going on 6 years and we have never let anything come between us up until this point. I am a terrible person. He doesn't deserve to have me around and I don't deserve him
Since being a kid making friends was always hard for me. There was something about me people wouldn't accept because I was different. It was the same when I started high school. This friend realized I was an outcast the first day we meet and I still remember it was mr. Johnson's grade 9 math class. It was awesome we hit it off and had so many things in common. Over the years children's aid split us up and we lost touch. He hit rock bottom once I left. He didn't know where I was and he thought I had left him and he went through drug addictions and cutting and abuse etc. I eventually came back to the city and we hooked up immediately reconnected :) I was too happy and overwhelmed. Then I got into a serious relationship and it fucked things up for us
We started hating eachother
My exes mom told me I needed to make changes and drop any friends she didn't like unless I wanted to lose her entire respect and having her son in my life
Although I still saw my friend on the side eventually I got caught and it caused alot of drama. Anyways story short I'm not living in another city and whenever I have money I go see him.
I need advice I want to try and earn his trust back
I hurt him but he hurt me also by sleeping with my ex which he said only happened once but it still hurt because I care about my ex
I still want this friend in my life. I care about him a HUGE amount
I wanna know how I can make things better
Mikey I know your reading this and I am sorry if this is too much for u
I care about this friend and what happened was all my fault I started it
I'm the reason all this happened. And I need him..... Not like my boyfriend or anything because your my boyfriend but I care about him too much to let him go
And DarkWingedAngel: I am sorry for putting you through hell man
Your my bro and I care about u alot too much and this shit has to stop
I know your hurting as am I but I still want you in my life. I car about you so much you already go through enough and I have already caused enough problems in the past and I wish I could take them all back just like I wish u could again I am sorry man :(
And again you can all judge me if you want
I deserve to be treated terribly for what I did
I just hope someone can understand how I am feeling and someone can somehow raise my spirits
Thanks for reading this guys
His name: DarkWingedAngel
I recently did a bad thing. I made fun of him knowing how much it would hurt him. This person is transgendered and me knowing this made fun of him and called him a girl and used his female name. And to top it off I let my little sister mouth him off using my phone. My sister being 10 didn't know what she was saying but went too far and caused my friend to experience triggers
I feel so guilty although I'm blaming myself for all of this
Not giving the kid a break, texting him constant when I knew he was in school which he paid alot of money for..... And the. Trying to control him when he would have drinks on school nights not realizing that he was doing it to focus on his massive amounts of homework. I am a terrible person. I guarantee whoevers reading right now is probably disgusted with my behavior and your probably thinking that I deserve this to lose him as a friend. The reason why it's hard to let go is cause we have been best friends for going on 6 years and we have never let anything come between us up until this point. I am a terrible person. He doesn't deserve to have me around and I don't deserve him
Since being a kid making friends was always hard for me. There was something about me people wouldn't accept because I was different. It was the same when I started high school. This friend realized I was an outcast the first day we meet and I still remember it was mr. Johnson's grade 9 math class. It was awesome we hit it off and had so many things in common. Over the years children's aid split us up and we lost touch. He hit rock bottom once I left. He didn't know where I was and he thought I had left him and he went through drug addictions and cutting and abuse etc. I eventually came back to the city and we hooked up immediately reconnected :) I was too happy and overwhelmed. Then I got into a serious relationship and it fucked things up for us
We started hating eachother
My exes mom told me I needed to make changes and drop any friends she didn't like unless I wanted to lose her entire respect and having her son in my life
Although I still saw my friend on the side eventually I got caught and it caused alot of drama. Anyways story short I'm not living in another city and whenever I have money I go see him.
I need advice I want to try and earn his trust back
I hurt him but he hurt me also by sleeping with my ex which he said only happened once but it still hurt because I care about my ex
I still want this friend in my life. I care about him a HUGE amount
I wanna know how I can make things better
Mikey I know your reading this and I am sorry if this is too much for u
I care about this friend and what happened was all my fault I started it
I'm the reason all this happened. And I need him..... Not like my boyfriend or anything because your my boyfriend but I care about him too much to let him go
And DarkWingedAngel: I am sorry for putting you through hell man
Your my bro and I care about u alot too much and this shit has to stop
I know your hurting as am I but I still want you in my life. I car about you so much you already go through enough and I have already caused enough problems in the past and I wish I could take them all back just like I wish u could again I am sorry man :(
And again you can all judge me if you want
I deserve to be treated terribly for what I did
I just hope someone can understand how I am feeling and someone can somehow raise my spirits
Thanks for reading this guys