I'm afraid of growing

[AnjoDude]

Hello fellow teens (:

I'm 16 years old, going to be 17 soon. I'm an aspiring rapper and poet and being what I am or want to be makes me think a lot. I think about a lot of things. But the other time, I thought about something really far ahead and it made feel lonely. I'm not sad or depressed or anything, just lonely. I have about 4 best friends, I'm kinda popular but I mostly hang out with these 4 because they're pretty similar to me and it's great to hang with them.

So I was writing a piece about growing old. Like how I usually writing my songs and poems, I start off by writing everything in my mind about that topic. It took me about half an hour to write a draft and used about 5 pages. I read them and it made lonely.

I wrote that if I grow old, all of my friends, my family, everyone I know will grow old and die someday. All of the online games I played before will be forgotten. All my accounts I've made, all the passwords. Everything dies with me. And if I die, I don't know who will be at my funeral. And even deeper, I thought about the human race. We're probably less than 1% in the whole universe and life just ends like a snap. That made me ask myself, what have I done so far? How could I live to the fullest? How can I find the meaning of life? And a lot more questions. I don't know how and why there is life but I want to find out.

I'm a Catholic but I've never been religious. I always question a lot of things from the Bible but most of the time, you can't really do that. God stuffs. I'm curious about age, life and our existence.

Anyway, feel free to drop your views and opinions (:

[Lost in the Echo]

Yeah, those are pretty scary things to think about.
But I just try to live life to the fullest, and try to succeed at everything I do.

So yeah, just make the best out of life that you can, and give everything you do and enjoy 100% effort, if you do that then you will be remembered long after you die.

[DerBear]

I think most of us think about the future. We see ourselves now and wish things couldn't change. We wish that we could stay the same and be the same. We wish we could live life as we live it now with all our family, friends and things around us. We don't want to grow up and face the world because we're content living the life we live just now.

We all feel like that at one point. We all feel like we aren't ready to move on in the world. Then we begin to ask ourselves the questions that you said above. We wonder, when we die, who will be watching us as we leave our life.

Its something we all contemplate and the honest answer is. We don't know, we'll never know until we move on in life and until we move on and into the future.

Honestly, the only thing we can do is take it one day at a time.

[tubanic]

I'm also Catholic to my religious mum, but I find God hard to believe in...
I think that if I suceed in some of the things I set out to do, I will feel fulfilled
If there's something I'm looking forward and it happens to or something I want and I get it, I feel like my life's worth living.
Don't think about death and when you're gone and stuff, live for the moment!

[Pedro Fernandes]

I dont wanna grow either. but we have too, because growing is what makes you stronger :)