ackmedsgirl666
December 11th, 2012, 09:26 PM
yup.... here i am writing another thread about depression and your probably thinking "ph great.. what has that boyfriend of hers done again" as people have seen most of my depression threads are about him.... but no this actually isnt about him at all....
this thread is about my "EX BESTFRIEND" and "EX BOYFRIEND" who have decided to betray me.. they were both someone i could trust... and up until this year my so called friend(lets call him DAN) well me and DAN had had our ups and downs but we always worked things out... but not this time.. DAN hates me and wants no part of me anymore... the one thing he always told me was" I LOVE HOW YOU ALWAYS CHOOSE DICK OF FRIENDS" meaning i guess i paid more attention to my boyfriends then him and i didnt realize that hurt him... either way he was always there for me and showed he gave a shit bout me but what happened this time really hurt. well bascially maybe i overreacted and thats why he got so pissed.... so like hes in college now.. and always busy and stuff but i like had this crazy obsession more or less for him.... and i always wanted to be with him or call him...text me....
and he usually always answered.... but lately his texts have been fewer and fewer... till the point i guess i pushed his buttons and he really hurt my feelings.. he knew i had feelings for him and me and him were gonna date or try dating... and see where things went.... but whenever he was drunk he would text me and say he was fucking this person... or fucking whoever.. and it really hurt me...
well i got confirmation from the person he said he was supposedly fucking that they werent.... but i found out who...
DAN HAS BEEN SLEEPING WITH MY EX BOYFRIEND.. and after me and my ex has been through to try and fight to stay together while all this probation and stuff is going on..... and we made plans to maybe try again when things were over.... well like it makes me wonder now how long has DAN be seeing my ex for..i mean my ex was always texting DAN and asking him to sleep with him and DAN told me everytime he said no.... well i think theres something going on here.. anyways it hurt...
but idk what to do.. let it be.. let him go... my boyfriend is supprting me through my sadness and being incredibly remorseful and he hates to see me hurting like i am now.... but like idk i guess i agree.. i mean if DAN and my ex wanna fuck then i guess thats their problem... but just idk....
i hurt alot... i dont know how long recovery will take..
anyways a snag to this thread... ive started an addiction
i wanna drink constantly... like everyday if i have money i wanna buy not beer but vodka or rum.... and just drink it.. i started on a bottle tonight.... and i plan on drowning my sorrows in it... and whats to hurt more is i still might be pregnant(hasnt been confirmed offickally yet) and even tho i know this may be the case i still wanna just drink... drink drink and mroe drink
i dont wanna kill my child... i dont wanna be a bad mother and give my child what i have F.A.S.D
ugh so many problems.... i wanna drink... i need to drink...
i need help :(
my mother suffered alcohol addiction... will i be the same??
and i dont wana hurt my boyfriend if it turns out i am oregnant and all this stress causes a miscarriage(ive had 2 this year)
this thread is about my "EX BESTFRIEND" and "EX BOYFRIEND" who have decided to betray me.. they were both someone i could trust... and up until this year my so called friend(lets call him DAN) well me and DAN had had our ups and downs but we always worked things out... but not this time.. DAN hates me and wants no part of me anymore... the one thing he always told me was" I LOVE HOW YOU ALWAYS CHOOSE DICK OF FRIENDS" meaning i guess i paid more attention to my boyfriends then him and i didnt realize that hurt him... either way he was always there for me and showed he gave a shit bout me but what happened this time really hurt. well bascially maybe i overreacted and thats why he got so pissed.... so like hes in college now.. and always busy and stuff but i like had this crazy obsession more or less for him.... and i always wanted to be with him or call him...text me....
and he usually always answered.... but lately his texts have been fewer and fewer... till the point i guess i pushed his buttons and he really hurt my feelings.. he knew i had feelings for him and me and him were gonna date or try dating... and see where things went.... but whenever he was drunk he would text me and say he was fucking this person... or fucking whoever.. and it really hurt me...
well i got confirmation from the person he said he was supposedly fucking that they werent.... but i found out who...
DAN HAS BEEN SLEEPING WITH MY EX BOYFRIEND.. and after me and my ex has been through to try and fight to stay together while all this probation and stuff is going on..... and we made plans to maybe try again when things were over.... well like it makes me wonder now how long has DAN be seeing my ex for..i mean my ex was always texting DAN and asking him to sleep with him and DAN told me everytime he said no.... well i think theres something going on here.. anyways it hurt...
but idk what to do.. let it be.. let him go... my boyfriend is supprting me through my sadness and being incredibly remorseful and he hates to see me hurting like i am now.... but like idk i guess i agree.. i mean if DAN and my ex wanna fuck then i guess thats their problem... but just idk....
i hurt alot... i dont know how long recovery will take..
anyways a snag to this thread... ive started an addiction
i wanna drink constantly... like everyday if i have money i wanna buy not beer but vodka or rum.... and just drink it.. i started on a bottle tonight.... and i plan on drowning my sorrows in it... and whats to hurt more is i still might be pregnant(hasnt been confirmed offickally yet) and even tho i know this may be the case i still wanna just drink... drink drink and mroe drink
i dont wanna kill my child... i dont wanna be a bad mother and give my child what i have F.A.S.D
ugh so many problems.... i wanna drink... i need to drink...
i need help :(
my mother suffered alcohol addiction... will i be the same??
and i dont wana hurt my boyfriend if it turns out i am oregnant and all this stress causes a miscarriage(ive had 2 this year)