Venting.

[Gandalf]

Venting as usual. Please just skip over me...


My head is messed up again and stressed over stupid things. This mood started Friday with me feeling guilty over missing a piece of work I neglected to do. At all. (I didn't realise it had to be done, I didn't write it down for whatever reason)

Anyway, I felt better earlier then a lonlelyness started to kick in and my head and thoughts wont turn off now. How fucking pathetic of me. :@

[Gandalf]

Why won't this mood pass?
ugh :mad:
tomorrow is Monday, fine but I want to do my work
and how can I if my thoughts dont switch off???


EH, EH???

[Gandalf]

I'll just post here again since my brain is torturing me, I keep getting this strange, altered memories that are just frustrating me. I'm probably imagining things and this anger is making my desire to cut worse. (I'd calmed down earlier since I just sunk into this pit). And then I sit here and something put events into my head.


I gave in to the desire to cut, not that I'm bragging because I'm ashamed of myself, my life. What I do. Who I am, even though I am repeatadly told I'm wonderful, I believe it from those I hear it from but it somehow doesn't change my view point.

There is just so much stuff I need to get out and I can't.

Again, anybody reading: I'm not requesting any response, there are those who need it more than me....