Here we go again..an emotional rollercoaster

[JaimeL]

Ive been depressed for two years and today, for the second time in less than two months, I had a breakdown. I have absolutely no present reasons for being depressed and Im just losing control.
Iwent to my second block at school today, english..which is not my best subject and im falling behind . Since Ive been feeling so down the past couple days its almost impossible for me to concentrate. I had to read a story and answer some questions. I read not even two sentences and i just couldnt do it..I can't even explain, I just could not put the words into my head. Along with my depression come extreme frustration and anger (never to or in front of other people) when i couldnt read the story I felt so angry and just was ready to snap. I went to the bathroom and just paced back and forth trying to breathe, ai wanted to pull my hair out and cut myself and curl up and die..
I never feel in control of my mind anymore, everything is a blur to me.
I went to talk to the school counsellor and broke down in tears.
I have an out of school counsellor too, and am looking into anti depressants..
Im so tired of feeling this way all the time...I just want to give up, I feel like there nothing worth living or trying for.
When I was walking home today my head was completely clouded...my only thought was 'Im done'
Im so emotionally exhausted that I dont feel anything. But id rather feel nothing at all than feeling depressed like always.

[Mike753]

What is depressing you exactly and making you feel down? If you don't really see a reason, it's probably just school and not being able to do what you want since you're still in school I assume. Just do things to get the depression off your mind, play a game or go somewhere with your parents. There should never be a "I'm done", because the only way for there to be an end is if you make it. Talk to some close friends? If they're your friends and care about you they'll listen and talk to you, no matter what time it is or what's happening. I don't like seeing posts like this because it reminds me of how I was, but then again I like seeing them because I like to see how there's soo many others that go through the same stuff. Anyways, good luck, but just don't let stuff get you down, it's only temporary.

[tubanic]

That sounds really crap and I can really sympathise
Before I left schooling, I started crying a lot in class until I was unable to walk into a classroom. I still can't concerntrate on work even at home
But you shouldn't worry much about work most people don't try at all in school but do fine at the end of it and get good jobs
Don't let schoolwork get to you
WHen you feel really down and out of control and helpless, try to concerntrate on something that means a lot to you, or find something that you can really look forward to
Anti-depressants work for most people, they should make you feel better :)