Suicide keeps popping up

[Sudds3]

So lately whenever I see some beautiful scene like an amazing sunset or something or hear a really nice song I always think "this would be a good place/great song to commit suicide too" Then I imagine how I would do it and eventually it becomes so real of a feeling that I start to cry and feel like I am going to kill myself in the next hour. This has happened at least 3 times a day for the past month. I also have been thinking more negatively and thinking that my new friends in high school might not actually be my friends, and then I think that maybe no one actually likes me.

I dont know why but I just always think of the worst. And when the hint of something bad comes about I just cant handle it and I feel like its just not worth living anymore. A song actually made me want to post this its called "addicted" by Morgan Page. I dont know why it makes me think of committing suicide but some songs always just trigger it and I dont even realize that im thinking about it. I think and think and then play out how i would do it then I imagine my funeral, I feel like no one would be there because I dont have any true friends, which I know is not true.

Sorry about running around in circles in the post but its just, meh, i need to get this out in hope of help.

Any and all help is appreciated :-/
My Sincere Thanks,
Adam

[that-god-chick]

aww dude im sorry to hear that, but know so many people love you on vt and in ur life.. i would suggest talking to someone about whats going and how you are feeling like a counsellor or someone..

im always here if u wanna chat, just pm me

[Abyssal Echo]

Having tried Suicide a number of times I can relate to how you feel. and if it weren't for some of my VT friends I prob would not be here now. like Chloe said do find someone you can trust to talk to about these feelings. I'm on here most of the time so If you wanna talk send ne a PM

[Mike753]

Your 14, there's no reason to think whatever you're going through now will be like that forever. When I was 13-15 I hated myself and thought about it before, but after your less limited, meaning no school, freedom from 'the house' and whatnot, it's much better. It's hard for me to explain what I mean, but there's no reason to waste your life when you could do so much, and I'm glad that I am here today and do what I do. Think about it, you can go through your life, do what you want, get a house, girlfriend, or you could end it and have nothing; easy choice? I listen to music every night, every day, I actually have a grooveshark playlist of about 630~ of the top songs :P Listening to music feels calm to me.
If you have a close friend, try talking to them if you need someone to talk to. Most people will listen to you, and that's all that matters really.

[The joker.]

Evryone goes trough hard times, some people their times are harder then others... I really feel bad for you, i tought about it too, i dont know how i got myself baack on track, it just happend, just dont do anything stupid bro!