Nothing left for me

[The Eraser]

I'm an introvert so I'm not really good in social situations. I can't meet new people or hold a conversation with anyone. I get nervous when I talk to anyone other than my friends I've known since elementary school. When I do go to social situations after the first hour i begin to hate it and I need to recharge and be alone. Now as you can see I live a very lonely life, but I'm somewhat content with that, although I've always longed for someone to love. I've always had hope I'd find a girl who's as passionate as I am about music and just isn't a shady, shallow, or annoying (extroverted) person. Someone who knows what it's like and who's quiet, but could warm up to me. But that hopes beginning to wane, I've seen no one like this but me. Women come in two flavors from my experience, the loud obnoxious type or the dark, brooding ones. Aside from that I've not met one who's passionate about the kind of music I am (Radiohead being my favorite and I'm also into classical, but that's "uncool", right?). Looks like I'm destined to live a lonely life. I imagine I'll just kill myself one of these days. Carbon monoxide poisoning seems like a nice, peaceful way to go.

[Maverick]

Something has to change. Continuing to avoid social circumstances will makes things worst. You have to break out of your shell and put yourself out there. You can't expect to ever find a girlfriend if you continue to shut people out. Isolation is the easy way out, but can make you miserable. Social interaction, friends, and love are great things you're missing out on.

Fortunately though, this can easily be reversed. Building up the confidence and just putting yourself in social situations like clubs at school, a job, church groups (if you're religious), sports, etc are easy ways to make friends. You aren't destined to live a lonely life. You have control of your life so nothing is unavoidable. As for your perception of women, if you give yourself the oppurtunity to open up and meet some, you'll see that many are unique, not in limited categories you described.

Suicide is never the answer. You shouldn't give up not only because you will hurt those who love you, you've just wasted a life with a permanent solution to a temporary problem and you'll never have the chance to change it. Don't give up. The problem isn't as impossible to solve as you think.

[Underground_Network]

Damn, you sound like me. I've turned my life around (this past year I was extremely suicidal, I've actually attempted suicide about 10 times in the past two years), but I think its been a sign that I've failed killing myself these past two years. Its a sign that I shouldn't go out, not yet anyway. Give your life some time. I keep making friends accidentally, and once you make one good new friend, he or she will lead you to others. I had had the same friends since kindergarten, and my life was fine until 6th grade when my best friend moved away and my ring of friends collapsed. But since then I've grown up the courage to chat a little bit more, but in my case, I can't start a conversation, but I usually have the ability to hold my own. I think you'll find someone who understands you eventually, and hopefully they'll help you out. Suicide is definitely not the answer though, and btw, Radiohead is a great band! :D

[Van.Moo.Spy.Purge]

Your situation seems very similar to my own. I can't really talk to people I just meet either. I am trying my hardest to somewhat over come this problem, but it continually seeks me out in the worst of situations.

To be honest, I believe I am making progress. I seem to be making more friends now than before which is good. And so, my advice to you is this: don't commit suicide. I thought about it myself multiple times, but realised that after schooling and such, it would be easier to associate myself with people that work in the same reigon as me and have similar interests. This means that I can find people that I will be comfortable talking with, and won't really have to deal with people who I don't know.

Anyway, hope it helps. =)

[Sapphire]

I agree with Ant about using clubs or sports to help build your confidence and help you gain more friends. I know it is difficult for you, but it will be worthwhile if you stick with it.
Females vary far greater than you give us credit for. By expanding your social interaction you will learn this for yourself and find a girl who you would like to get romantically involved.
Until you take control of things in your life, you won't be happy. So take control today and make the effort.

[Whisper]

You just need to find people that will help you get out more
I know thats not an easy task in 10yrs i've had 3 good friends
one of them despises me now but if he ever need me i'll always be there
so that leaves 2 really good friends

A few yrs ago when I first joined VT and I started meeting people I met one guy named Matt
He was fucking wicked we would talk on msn for HOURS
He would turn his webcam on so I could see him n everything (at the time i didn't even have one)
Him and Rudi spent 6hrs tracking me down my full name address phone number etc because I was planning a suicide and they wanted to be able to stop me
we started talking online in a program called TeamSpeak by talk online I mean they'd talk I'd listen i was TERRIFIED to talk he got my cell number and hed call me major long distance for him just to talk to me I would never say a word I'd answer hed say hello and I'd like cough er something and he'd just start talking
It took him months but he finally got me to the point where we could actually carry a conversation

It evolved more and more over the years
we met face to face twice n'everything

and now Rudi, Brad and my sister drag me around constantly to try and get me out and it does help
you just need to find people that you can talk to
I know thats no easy task
but believe me its far from impossible

There are people in this world that truly care and they will help you
But you have to reach out
to meet a few people atleast

As far as not being able to find a gf

I'm 20yrs old and I've never had one
....not something I'm overly proud about but meh
life's a bitch
I'll find someone

[The Eraser]

I'm content with being an introvert, I don't really like people. It's just the need for a companion and not being able to find anyone is what's wrong... I just needed someone to tell I guess.

[Whisper]

YOur not gonna find anyone if you dont get out more

[trn19]

Hey man, I'm in the same position as you. I'm a total loner, I don't like people or parties AT ALL, I know what it feels like, I also think most of the time I'm destined to have a lonely life and I have consider suicide too. And don't know what else to tell you except that you shouldn't kill yourself, you can count on us, we can be your friends, I know it's not the same as having friends you actually know in real life, but at least it's something. Don't worry too much, I'm sure you will find someone who will accept you for who you are, you just have to be patient and keep looking, I guess. Cheer up, man.

[Sapphire]

YOur not gonna find anyone if you dont get out more

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