No clue what to do...

[Jackie_119]

Let me start by saying I am totally happy with my life right now. I have a great family, we're all close to each other, and although I don't have hardly any friends my older brother more than makes up for that (We're interested in the same things anyway, so I'd rather have him than any of the kids from my Sunday School class). I'm learning to play an instrument, and I'm really excited about it.

Right now, for a few weeks, my head has just been all messed up. It started when I read into those "What if life is a computer simulation?" things. That really got me worried. Eventually, I got over it, but a few days afterwards I found this video detailing a bunch of end-of-the-world scenarios. That REALLY got me worried. I started worrying that we may all die in the blink of an eye, and everything I've done will just go to waste.

That was several weeks ago, and I'm still worrying about it. I can try to do things that will take my mind off of it like playing video games or reading a book, but as soon as I'm done, the thoughts come back. It seems like my common sense and my wild imagination are in a constant war with each other.

I'm afraid to ask my parents for help, because the last time I did my Dad got aggravated at me for reading stupid stuff like that. So what can I do? How can I help myself?

[Hyper]

Hmm yeah you are reading stupid stuff.. There's no need to worry about things you can't really influence, well sure you can go out and save the planet! Or whatever

But there's no point worrying over things like when will I die? Or how will I die?

If you want to worry about your life rather worry about how will you live, and take the worrying to doing things.. And then forget the worrying xD

[0=]

Worrying about uncontrollable factors like death constantly is called existential depression. I had a little problem with it for a while, then I said eh, fuck it, not much to do about it. Just distract yourself with the mindless pleasures we've invented.

[ctw4451]

You shouldn't worry about it. We'll die, but we shouldn't focus on that on Earth. Live life to the fullest, and be yourself. It's just your imagination. Our imaginations can be very wild. VERY wild. Maybe it's hormones? Who knows. You'll be okay. Good luck!

[thesphinx]

If the earth ends the earth ends. why get worried about it. if it ends it wont matter anyway. but if it doesn't then you will have wasted your whole life worrying about it.

[Attax]

If it ends then I am leaving it in God's hands

[byee]

Well, Jackie, for starters, I'd recommend you not read scary books and the like! Certain people (like you!) are just too sensitive to read (or watch) stuff with that story line. Know that about yourself and apply it.

If these thoughts are really interferring with your life, as in your not being able to sleep, concentrate, etc. then regardless of your dad's reaction, you should tell them and get some help. If you can manage this on your own, then you might just 1) Stay away from creepy stuff, and 2) Recognize that because you're a delicate flower you're going to react this way, and that your reaction is more a reflection of who you are, rather than some accurate prediction of calamity. It's in your head, repeat that to yourself. Eventually, it'll pass.

As an FYI, fearing the end isn't really an 'Existential depression', it's an irrational thought. And depending on how irrational the thought is (and how it interferes with life), it can be rather debilitating. 'Existential depression' sounds more like some affliction of those with way too much time on their hands.

[kovert43]

bud i got a few words for yah i used to worry about al that but dont u got a alife ahead i was the same got over it