Am I gay? Asked alot, I know

[Jackie_119]

Alright, a long time ago, one of my friends came over for a sleepover. When it got late, we started experimenting. We rubbed our genitals together and stuff (We didn't orgasm or anything like that. At that age we didn't even know what an orgasm was). We did this for a few nights until my friend told me he wanted to stop. I didn't want to at first, but later, I decided it was time to stop, too.

A couple years later I discovered masturbation. I also discovered that thinking of the things me and my friend did turns me on, and I jacked off to the thoughts a couple times, but every time I was done I felt really disgusted with myself.

I usually always jack off to thoughts of girls, and if I imagine any man besides my friend there, I'm not turned on. Me and my friend aren't really emotionally attached or anything. When I meet him in real life, he's just the same as everyone else.

Help, please? I know it's OK to be a homosexual, but almost all of my family is Christian, and I'd be afraid they might dislike me if I turned out to be gay.

[Gumleaf]

from what you have said there is no indication to me that you are gay. you have been curious obviously, but if you don't find other men attractive you are not gay. being gay isn't just being turned on, its also about the emotional attachment you have to the person or men in general. if you don't have the emotional attachment it is safe to say you are not gay.

[Underground_Network]

I agree with trigger, but giving us your age would help, if you're anywhere from 13-16, even older I guess, you may not know you're true sexuality yet. I'm 75% sure I'm straight and I have in depth fantasies about guys as well as girls. Its not just who you're physically attracted to, its who you're emotionally attracted to as well. If you are emotionally and physically attracted to girls, you're straight, emotionally and physically attracted to guys, you're gay, emotionally and physically attracted to both, you're bi, emotionally and physically attracted to yourself, you're a narcissist, or emotionally and physically attracted to nothing, you have no sexuality; and then there are various forms of paraphilia, but I don't want to make you vomit all over you're computer screen, and I already posted the list somewhere else, so I won't bother listing those. But I think its probably too early to tell, and based on what you posted, at worst, you're bi, but I think you're probably straight, but again, its probably to early to tell, telling us your age would really help.