Just unhappy

[Dawn01]

I love how people from this forum are always willing to help, and how I feel comfortable to tell my problems to you! ^^

But yeah, I've been really unhappy... I guess no matter if take antidepressants, depression still gets me, like I'll never be able to get free from her :(

Like I told you, my heart was broken in a terrible way, and it still aches a lot. I'm kinda afraid of moving on, I'm afraid that he'll change ideia and confuse me, but I want to move on, even though I still haven't found the right person to do it. I do feel lonely and I do want to be happy at love. He left a hole in my life, and I want to cover this hole. But at the same time, I wanted him as the good friend he used to be. Too bad that he is not answering my messages!

I just feel bored all the time. I'm losing interest for things that I used to love, like ballet... I know that I'll regret later if I leave ballet, but now I just don't feel like dancing anymore, I lost my will. I can't lie to myself, I'm not happy, I just want to be quiet in my corner. Sometimes I get suicidal, I feel that I'm hopeless that no one truly cares about how I feel, but them I think about the pain that I would cause to people if I die... I even think about the guy that broke my heart, I imagine him feeling guilty and going crazy! (if he is not some kind of psycho, he would be desolated, because he would think it was his fault) People may don't care that I'm alive, but if I died, they would feel miserable, and I don't want it! (crazy, eh?)

I don't know... I just want to feel better, and I don't wanna have to kill myself :cry: I'm so hurt that sometimes it's difficult to keep living!

[ImCoolBeans]

I know it's difficult to do but moving on is definitely the right course of action. You need to do what is in the interest of your well being and the longer you postpone that the more likely you are to keep feeling this way. It's not easy to move on by yourself but it is something that I think needs to be done for you to start getting over your depression -- it's the first step to start feeling better. He left a hole in your life but you fill that yourself. Don't let him occupy any more real estate in your head and in your heart -- it's just going to keep bringing you down.

Loss of interest in activities that you love, or once did, is very common during depression but if you withdraw yourself from everything in your life you will give yourself way too much free time. When a person is depressed he or she tends to see everything in a negative kind of way -- kind of like a bias. It's hard to break somebody from that bias but it is essential because it is a dangerous state of mind. When somebody is thinking negatively the majority of the time he or she is much more likely to do something that they may regret, or something dangerous. Most of the time these regrettable and potentially dangerous situations arise from the person being withdrawn from his or her regular life. Having too much time on your hands gives you too many opportunities to think and over-think things in your life -- and is especially dangerous mixed with a negatively biased outlook on life. If you don't want to continue dance you don't have to, especially if it makes you unhappy; but try to keep yourself a little busy because I have found that staying busy is the key to distracting your mind from wandering into dangerous places.

[Borxar]

Ah Dawn, whilst I do not know the exact details of your situation and what went on, but I do understand how it hurts to lose someone you want to be a part of your life. Someone who has provided you love and memories can sometimes seem hard to move on from, however, in a world with many people, there always arises someone who gives you love. You deserve love and no doubt people can show you that love. But it also starts with being able to love yourself. You have to see that you are a beautiful creation in yourself and the things that make you and give you joy, should not be sacrificed for a boy, even one you love. But take strength in that you can be who you are and in doing so show people the love inside of you.

He hurt you and that hard, but hurting yourself more is not the answer when there is bright hope in the future and real love around. You have alot to offer with or without a boy being present and so dont forget how special you are and you will come to be special to more people :)

[Dawn01]

I know it's difficult to do but moving on is definitely the right course of action. You need to do what is in the interest of your well being and the longer you postpone that the more likely you are to keep feeling this way. It's not easy to move on by yourself but it is something that I think needs to be done for you to start getting over your depression -- it's the first step to start feeling better. He left a hole in your life but you fill that yourself. Don't let him occupy any more real estate in your head and in your heart -- it's just going to keep bringing you down.

Loss of interest in activities that you love, or once did, is very common during depression but if you withdraw yourself from everything in your life you will give yourself way too much free time. When a person is depressed he or she tends to see everything in a negative kind of way -- kind of like a bias. It's hard to break somebody from that bias but it is essential because it is a dangerous state of mind. When somebody is thinking negatively the majority of the time he or she is much more likely to do something that they may regret, or something dangerous. Most of the time these regrettable and potentially dangerous situations arise from the person being withdrawn from his or her regular life. Having too much time on your hands gives you too many opportunities to think and over-think things in your life -- and is especially dangerous mixed with a negatively biased outlook on life. If you don't want to continue dance you don't have to, especially if it makes you unhappy; but try to keep yourself a little busy because I have found that staying busy is the key to distracting your mind from wandering into dangerous places.

Yeah, I have thought about this too! It's like kind of paradox: I'm not in the mood to do certain things, but if I don't keep my mind busy, it could make me feel worse... And dance used to make me happy, when I was younger I used to dream to be a professional, but now I just don't think that I'm good enough since I have a problem in my feet that complicates many things... It's like the lyrics from Smells Like Teen Spirit "I worse in what I do best, and for this gift I feel blessed" :(

But you are right, and you gave me a good advice! (y)


Ah Dawn, whilst I do not know the exact details of your situation and what went on, but I do understand how it hurts to lose someone you want to be a part of your life. Someone who has provided you love and memories can sometimes seem hard to move on from, however, in a world with many people, there always arises someone who gives you love. You deserve love and no doubt people can show you that love. But it also starts with being able to love yourself. You have to see that you are a beautiful creation in yourself and the things that make you and give you joy, should not be sacrificed for a boy, even one you love. But take strength in that you can be who you are and in doing so show people the love inside of you.

He hurt you and that hard, but hurting yourself more is not the answer when there is bright hope in the future and real love around. You have alot to offer with or without a boy being present and so dont forget how special you are and you will come to be special to more people :)

That actually made me cry... Thank you so much for such sweet words!

Man, I don't know what to do about him anymore, away too many mistakes were made between us! This is just terrible :cry: I shall just let it be, but it's hard :/

[Borxar]

That actually made me cry... Thank you so much for such sweet words!

Man, I don't know what to do about him anymore, away too many mistakes were made between us! This is just terrible :cry: I shall just let it be, but it's hard :/

Mmm it made me want to cry writing it too cause it is so important. I know its hard and there are things we wish we could take back but we cant let the mistakes overtake us and think that that is who we are. Cause its not true :)

[Dawn01]

Mmm it made me want to cry writing it too cause it is so important. I know its hard and there are things we wish we could take back but we cant let the mistakes overtake us and think that that is who we are. Cause its not true :)

My mistakes, his mistakes... Maybe it wasn't supposed to be :/ Too bad that we were good friends and maybe we can't be anymore now :cry: He is slipping through my fingers, I don't know what more to do to talk to him!



Update: TODAY I SOLVED THE PROBLEM WITH THIS GUY!! It made me feel a lot better, he forgave my mistakes and I forgave his, we are friends again :D

I think I'm less depressed now ^^ My heart is still broken, but ok, there are many guys in this world!

[Borxar]

Well thats great. I'm glad you were able to work things out, but yeah just remember that even when we cant get back the people that are important to us, that we dont have to give up either :)