i got caught...

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I cut myself... four times. I am stupid and had no good reason for it. I told my almost boyfriend guy thingy about it and he got so worried he turned me into guidance at school. I'm not mad he did it, he was worried. I'm glad he did. The nurse ended up seeing them. She asked me if my mother had seen them. I convinced the nurse they were really old when they weren't. My mom ended up seeing them a couple days later. We talked about how it doesn't solve anything and how she would know becuase she did it. She said as long as it stopped I wouldn't get in trouble.

I don't know what to think of life anymore. I still want to cut, and I don't know why. I have no good reason to. The guy I told got REALLY mad at me for doing it because he did it to. I'm afraid he's doing it again but I don't know how to confront him about it. And then yesterday my friend asked me and some other friends what we would say if we found out she cut herself. When we were alone I pulled up my sleeve, showed her my scars, and told her it was nothing to joke about. The scars are finally starting to fade though.

This post really has no point other then to tell people my story of cutting. It's not a pretty one and if anyone feels like doing it, don't. It's a dumb thing to do and I'm going to be reminded that by the scars on my arm. In total I have 8. Some darker than others.

Overall, it seems like everyone I know is cutting now. I hate it.