Thigg
November 26th, 2012, 10:36 AM
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=157925
My old thread if you want to read it fast, this is same thing and you get important info what has happened.
So, in nutcase, I love my best friend more than she love me..she love me much but I guess not that way..
Lately some time ago I have been surfing on one forums and I knew her account there and I bumbed her posts and ... you know.. I may be bad, but I wanted take a look and found her others posts. There she just tell about her "very handsome cute etcetc crush" and things like that .. It's not me of course. And with me she doesn't want to date because I'm just normal looking. And we have had argues and last one, please read that link I posted up there... you can see how much she "seems" to care about me... and she said she meant everything. But I don't know..
I know I hurted myself by reading those forums...But now at least I know. I feel very unhappy etc and depressed. And talking to her is "harder". I mean I can't talk to her about everything I before did and I can't speak to anyone about this problem because shes the one I'm used to talk about everything. It's just we are both kind of shy and away from other people and I doubt that she can get that "crush" because of many reasons I know but still... I just feel very unhappy...But on the same time we have many future plans and things like that we are going to do and promised to do and and...
I don't even know why do I post here... I should have much fewer connection or something..but then I just can't because we have been "together" very active very long...I'm just being here with her because I love her too much to left her alone...and she thinks everything is okay now and I'm fine. I also "seem" to be kind of okay, but..
My old thread if you want to read it fast, this is same thing and you get important info what has happened.
So, in nutcase, I love my best friend more than she love me..she love me much but I guess not that way..
Lately some time ago I have been surfing on one forums and I knew her account there and I bumbed her posts and ... you know.. I may be bad, but I wanted take a look and found her others posts. There she just tell about her "very handsome cute etcetc crush" and things like that .. It's not me of course. And with me she doesn't want to date because I'm just normal looking. And we have had argues and last one, please read that link I posted up there... you can see how much she "seems" to care about me... and she said she meant everything. But I don't know..
I know I hurted myself by reading those forums...But now at least I know. I feel very unhappy etc and depressed. And talking to her is "harder". I mean I can't talk to her about everything I before did and I can't speak to anyone about this problem because shes the one I'm used to talk about everything. It's just we are both kind of shy and away from other people and I doubt that she can get that "crush" because of many reasons I know but still... I just feel very unhappy...But on the same time we have many future plans and things like that we are going to do and promised to do and and...
I don't even know why do I post here... I should have much fewer connection or something..but then I just can't because we have been "together" very active very long...I'm just being here with her because I love her too much to left her alone...and she thinks everything is okay now and I'm fine. I also "seem" to be kind of okay, but..