LoveMe_HateMe
November 25th, 2012, 07:08 PM
I'm in a terrible place at the moment and I don't know how time get but if it. I'm hating college. I don't want for go to college. I'm not enjoying it. I'm not enjoying work, I'm not enjoying anything anymore.
I struggle to get up and face the world, last week I went to college one day because in just really didn't want to face it. Im hating everything. I hate my home, I hate my girlfriends house, I hate college, I hate work, I hate myself.
I want to die. Well... I want it to end, I want the pain, the stress, the emptiness, the fear, the loathing, the tiredness to end.
I don't know what to do, I'm lost, I'm stuck, I don't know which way to turn. I just feel like I'm stuck in a massive black pit and I can't find my way out, I can't make sense of where I'm going, I can't see where I'm going. I can't see myself. I can't find myself.
Quite frankly I'm scared.
I can't do anything right, all I do is fuck up and sleep. Every single day.
I struggle to get up and face the world, last week I went to college one day because in just really didn't want to face it. Im hating everything. I hate my home, I hate my girlfriends house, I hate college, I hate work, I hate myself.
I want to die. Well... I want it to end, I want the pain, the stress, the emptiness, the fear, the loathing, the tiredness to end.
I don't know what to do, I'm lost, I'm stuck, I don't know which way to turn. I just feel like I'm stuck in a massive black pit and I can't find my way out, I can't make sense of where I'm going, I can't see where I'm going. I can't see myself. I can't find myself.
Quite frankly I'm scared.
I can't do anything right, all I do is fuck up and sleep. Every single day.