Discomposure
November 23rd, 2012, 08:12 PM
I'm not grieving over my aunty. I don't think I am anyway.
In April this year, my aunty who I was pretty close to took her own life.
I'm not going into details as to why etc. I just want to know if anybody can tell me why she keeps coming into my head so much recently.
Obviously I was sad and shocked, as was everybody in the family but it's not the first person I've lost close to me. I've managed to get on with things after the loss of quite a few loved ones in my family and after a while you sort of come to a realisation that they're gone but everyone else is carrying on so you have to aswell. I've made my peace, I've (without sounding harsh) started to get on with life again.
Just the past 2 months she has been in my head constantly, I don't know why! I tend to write, mainly poetry about the people I love who i've lost and it really helps to get them off my mind. I've tried this, she just won't go away. I have so many questions I wish she could answer, so many questions I'm asking myself, 'Could I have done more' etc.
I guess i'm just asking, why won't she go? I can't ask these questions so why can't I stop thinking about it?
In April this year, my aunty who I was pretty close to took her own life.
I'm not going into details as to why etc. I just want to know if anybody can tell me why she keeps coming into my head so much recently.
Obviously I was sad and shocked, as was everybody in the family but it's not the first person I've lost close to me. I've managed to get on with things after the loss of quite a few loved ones in my family and after a while you sort of come to a realisation that they're gone but everyone else is carrying on so you have to aswell. I've made my peace, I've (without sounding harsh) started to get on with life again.
Just the past 2 months she has been in my head constantly, I don't know why! I tend to write, mainly poetry about the people I love who i've lost and it really helps to get them off my mind. I've tried this, she just won't go away. I have so many questions I wish she could answer, so many questions I'm asking myself, 'Could I have done more' etc.
I guess i'm just asking, why won't she go? I can't ask these questions so why can't I stop thinking about it?