Eric57
November 23rd, 2012, 01:22 AM
Here's the thing, after high school I lost touch with most of my friends because they all went off to different colleges. Now I really only have like maybe 3 friends. It has never really bothered me because I don't need a million friends. I've always had a lot of friends, but only a few really good friends that I talk to and hang out with daily, like most people. But lately my lack of my friends has been bugging me... and part of it is due to my best friend.
Basically there are times when I just don't even want to talk to her or hang out with her. I feel bad because we are best friends, but I just have these weird feelings about our friendship lately. It's odd and I can't explain it. I love the girl to death as my best friend, but she bugs me sometimes. Like, she gets super jealous when I hang out with one of my other friends. She makes snide remarks about the other friend and she basically just doesn't like her. I always stick up for my other friend and tell her to stop being the way she is. It just bugs me because I feel like she doesn't want me hanging out with other people aside from her. Other than that, not much else really bugs me. She isn't clingy or anything of the sort. It's just that one thing. But I feel so bad because lately a lot of the times I just don't ever feel like talking to her or hanging out with her. I always do because I don't want to be rude and ignore her. But whenever we hang out lately and it's been a few hours, I'm always itching to go home because I don't feel like hanging out anymore. Don't get me wrong, there are times when I love hanging out with her and talking to her because she is my friend, but lately I just don't feel like it. And I feel bad for feeling this way.
Also, I have an issue with her being my best friend. I guess it's not really that, but I don't know. It's like, she is a girl and I am guy. She loves shopping and doing girl thing... I don't. The thing is, I am gay. So she always has this idea in her head that I am her shopping buddy and that I love doing girl things... But I tell her all the time that I don't. I shop with her because she asks me to and I don't want to say no, but she knows I hate doing it. I guess it's more like I just want guy friends. The only friends I have left are girls and it's so frustrating. I want to be around a guy. There are times I like about being friends with girls, but sometimes I just want to sit back, hang out, and just be around a guy. Not anything sexual, but as friends, you know? And it bugs me that I am best friends with a girl because I can't do guy things because she doesn't like to. I mean, I'm not into sports or anything, but there are times when I want to go see an action movie or something and she won't because she doesn't like them... and since I have no guy friends anymore, I have nobody to go see them with. It's just small things like that, you know?
I don't know. I love my best friend to death, but lately I'm just getting so annoyed, I guess you could say. There are times when I just don't want to be friends with her.
I feel like most of what I said doesn't really fit together. hahaha I feel like it's all separate issues. lol But the main issue I am having is that I am having this feelings about my friendship with my best friend. Regardless of the fact that she is a girl, I don't think I should feel this way about my best friend. It's just weird to me and I don't like it. hahaha
Basically there are times when I just don't even want to talk to her or hang out with her. I feel bad because we are best friends, but I just have these weird feelings about our friendship lately. It's odd and I can't explain it. I love the girl to death as my best friend, but she bugs me sometimes. Like, she gets super jealous when I hang out with one of my other friends. She makes snide remarks about the other friend and she basically just doesn't like her. I always stick up for my other friend and tell her to stop being the way she is. It just bugs me because I feel like she doesn't want me hanging out with other people aside from her. Other than that, not much else really bugs me. She isn't clingy or anything of the sort. It's just that one thing. But I feel so bad because lately a lot of the times I just don't ever feel like talking to her or hanging out with her. I always do because I don't want to be rude and ignore her. But whenever we hang out lately and it's been a few hours, I'm always itching to go home because I don't feel like hanging out anymore. Don't get me wrong, there are times when I love hanging out with her and talking to her because she is my friend, but lately I just don't feel like it. And I feel bad for feeling this way.
Also, I have an issue with her being my best friend. I guess it's not really that, but I don't know. It's like, she is a girl and I am guy. She loves shopping and doing girl thing... I don't. The thing is, I am gay. So she always has this idea in her head that I am her shopping buddy and that I love doing girl things... But I tell her all the time that I don't. I shop with her because she asks me to and I don't want to say no, but she knows I hate doing it. I guess it's more like I just want guy friends. The only friends I have left are girls and it's so frustrating. I want to be around a guy. There are times I like about being friends with girls, but sometimes I just want to sit back, hang out, and just be around a guy. Not anything sexual, but as friends, you know? And it bugs me that I am best friends with a girl because I can't do guy things because she doesn't like to. I mean, I'm not into sports or anything, but there are times when I want to go see an action movie or something and she won't because she doesn't like them... and since I have no guy friends anymore, I have nobody to go see them with. It's just small things like that, you know?
I don't know. I love my best friend to death, but lately I'm just getting so annoyed, I guess you could say. There are times when I just don't want to be friends with her.
I feel like most of what I said doesn't really fit together. hahaha I feel like it's all separate issues. lol But the main issue I am having is that I am having this feelings about my friendship with my best friend. Regardless of the fact that she is a girl, I don't think I should feel this way about my best friend. It's just weird to me and I don't like it. hahaha