Philleeep
November 21st, 2012, 12:13 PM
Ok so you don't need to comment. I just needed to get this off my chest because in a matter of like 5 mins my mood has completely changed. It's a longish story so bare with.
Ok so surprise surprise it's guy related. Woooo. Not. I met a guy who I though was amazing blardy blardy bla. He treated me amazing and we wanted to date. He is openly gay and i'm not openly bi and I know to properly date a guy thrn you have to be out. We hung out plenty of times and we made out a few times and he actually made me so happy and like things were going to go well.
I decided I wanted to take this to a proper relationship so I had planned to come out to family and those who don't know and get a job so we can see eachother more. We hadn't spoken for two days because I was affraid I'd tell him before I did it. The day I planned to come out, which Is today btw, I go onto facebook and what the hell do I see? Pictures of him and some other guy kissing and posting messages how much they loved eachother. And then! i saw his relationship status and he was in a relationship with him, as of that morning!
I'm just. Xtrhkytcytcyt what the fuck. I'm like what the hell. I'm so angry and upset with him but I've not got the balls to say anything to him. I'm happy I don't have to come out now but WTF. I admit my initail reactions were a lot worse than this because I posted a ton of generic abusing facebook messages about it. But now I feel such a dumb fuck. I got so angry i ran a bath and forgot to turn the cold tap on so now I've scalded my legs from when I got in. I'm fucking fuming. I don't know what to do so I posted here and I feel like ranting here helped in it's self but UGH. ANGRY BOTH WITHIN AND MYSELF. Do I like, start a conversation and be like, nice, after all I was going to do for you. Or say nothing or what. Pretend things never hsppened. Confused, angry, upset, baffled, bewildered. Lost.
End of rant. Yes I know there is grammar and puncuation errors but guess what, I can't be bothered to fix them.
Also when I say forgot to turn the cold tap on. I told myself to not turn it on.
Ok so surprise surprise it's guy related. Woooo. Not. I met a guy who I though was amazing blardy blardy bla. He treated me amazing and we wanted to date. He is openly gay and i'm not openly bi and I know to properly date a guy thrn you have to be out. We hung out plenty of times and we made out a few times and he actually made me so happy and like things were going to go well.
I decided I wanted to take this to a proper relationship so I had planned to come out to family and those who don't know and get a job so we can see eachother more. We hadn't spoken for two days because I was affraid I'd tell him before I did it. The day I planned to come out, which Is today btw, I go onto facebook and what the hell do I see? Pictures of him and some other guy kissing and posting messages how much they loved eachother. And then! i saw his relationship status and he was in a relationship with him, as of that morning!
I'm just. Xtrhkytcytcyt what the fuck. I'm like what the hell. I'm so angry and upset with him but I've not got the balls to say anything to him. I'm happy I don't have to come out now but WTF. I admit my initail reactions were a lot worse than this because I posted a ton of generic abusing facebook messages about it. But now I feel such a dumb fuck. I got so angry i ran a bath and forgot to turn the cold tap on so now I've scalded my legs from when I got in. I'm fucking fuming. I don't know what to do so I posted here and I feel like ranting here helped in it's self but UGH. ANGRY BOTH WITHIN AND MYSELF. Do I like, start a conversation and be like, nice, after all I was going to do for you. Or say nothing or what. Pretend things never hsppened. Confused, angry, upset, baffled, bewildered. Lost.
End of rant. Yes I know there is grammar and puncuation errors but guess what, I can't be bothered to fix them.
Also when I say forgot to turn the cold tap on. I told myself to not turn it on.