Can't stop cutting myself

[Defeated Girl]

So I just want to vent and hear from other people going through the same thing.I have been cutting for 5 yrs now.I started at 14 and I'm now 19.I 've trie getting help with therapy and medication,but everything seems to fail.Nothing works.I feel SO lonely.No one understands me.I've been cutting A LOT lately and deeper and deeper.When the blood gushes out it feels as if so are my feelings.Like ALL the negativity is just flowing out.As the cuts heal,it feels like so do my inner wounds.It makes life easier.But now I'm just at that point where iwant to stop cuz I'm tired of that.It feels right and wrong.I need to stop but then I feel I really don't.I'm just confused right now.I feel like giving up.I need someone who I can relate to and understands exactly what I'm going through.If anyone wants to share anything with me,feel free <3 Thanks.

[Noirtier]

Hun, I know how you feel. There are a lot of people on here who have struggled and still do struggle with self harm, and have been where you are. I have too. It's an addiction, it really is. You crave it, you feel you need it. You know it's wrong, but it becomes a coping mechanism and you feel you can't stop. And in some way, you may not feel you want to. I know exactly how you feel. The first step is actively deciding that you want to recover, and taking the steps towards quitting. Try a different therapist, or try finding other ways to cope with your feeling. Writing and artwork is a great way of expression that helps. A key to quitting is distracting yourself as well--doing whatever you can that is healthy and will get your mind off of cutting. Whether that be reading a book, watching a movie or TV, listening to music, writing, doing artwork, etc. Just anything you can to get your mind off of it. And no matter what, all of us here on VT will be here to help and support you! :hug:

[Defeated Girl]

THANK YOU!!it feels great to know at least one person understands me.