I just dont know what to do anymore.....

[Wintergirl_80.0]

Im hurting the ones i love. my boyfriend is now in tears because i wont eat.....I cant eat. I have to be skinny and perfect..... and i dont know what to do. Im cutting agian and its starting to get really bad and to be honest i just want to die. i swear to god i want to die. Its all i can do to not go and OD on adderal and painkillers and any other medicine i can find..............i dont know what to do......

[PinkFloyd]

Im so sorry you have to face this every day. What you need to do is get help. Go get help from a professional. You might get put on a medication but it will help you get better. You just have to know that suicide is a very drastic action that does no good.

Best wishes,

- Robert

[Penteract]

You can still remain skinny and perfect all the while eating. All you have to do is exercise a decent amount of time daily and you'll be able to eat ANYTHING you want without gaining any wait whatsoever. You'd remain beautiful, if not better than you look without eating. All that has to be done is exercise a bit if you want to eat a lot. Trust me, at your age your metabolism is high enough to the point where you'd need less than half of the exercise any adult would need to burn any fat they consume.

Suiciding is not the solution. Read what I said above and take it into consideration! It's better to eat all you want & exercise than to eat nothing and not exercise. With the first option, you'll be perfect; nutrients, good looks, happy, etc. With the other, you'll probably be in pain, NOT healthy, and a lot of people might consider you less attractive. Just eat all you want and exercise proportionally, depending on how much you eat.

If you found my words helpful, do not hesitate to speak with me more of the subject. I'll tell you everything possible in order to help you understand that you can still be beautiful without harming yourself and others; both physically and mentally.

I'm not a professional, but I can give you my two cents as much as possible.

[Wintergirl_80.0]

i do exsercize.....

[Penteract]

Then why do you insist on not eating? If you're exercising then you should be more than fine by eating anything you desire. If you can see your chest bones clearly then you're too skinny, and honestly it's not too good looking. Decent weight will make you look more than fine and it'll make everyone, including yourself, feel better. Don't think that you have to be like 80 pounds in order to look perfect. Not too much, but definitely not too little.

[Shaka]

As an older, athletic kind of guy, I think that a girl who professes some kind of protection while she torments her body with undernourishment is immature to the real world, and silly. The perfect body is the one that goes strong, goes on, takes scars in stride and does what is best for its own and what else for which it can provide.
Grow into that role, the role of the strong and steadfast caregiver and you will be the perfect woman.

[Wintergirl_80.0]

because 80.0 pounds it perfection...... because seeing my hip bones and collar bones would mean that im finally free. i am 133lb at the moment. and i discust myself. besides these things are the only things i have control over.

[Texas warrior]

I have to be skinny
My girlfriend is ugly, but her mind is beautiful. You don't need looks to make people like you.

because 80.0 pounds it perfection.....
I scorn perfection, would rather be my imperfect self that be perfect, because it is are imperfections and are hardships that make us who we are. Watch the show Angel Beats and you will understand. It's only 12 episodes long and it help me beat my dispersion, well worth the time it took to watch.

[Shaka]

Yep, or My Little Pony, or wait, that is about being yourself and nothing to do with perfection, ah well, to be is to watch the Walking Dead with slightly less excitement then my little pony. -It's got some transcendental meanings.