Honestly... I'm so lost.

[Noxail]

I am so lost. What have I done to myself? I have taken away my own future, for one goddamn boy. One bastard that took every ounce of love I had, and crushed it in thirty minutes. I found out today with me popping pain pills like I have for the past year and a half, that I've ruined my liver. Shot it to hell. I'm a goner. And for what? A fucking seventeen year old without a heart. I just wanted love. Maybe I should just kill myself now. Maybe I should hang around for a while. I don't know. I.. I don't know. ~holli

[SchizLife]

Holli!

Your signature tells us a great piece of advice, which is to "Stay Strong!" Please do the same!

If you ever feel like harming yourself, let somebody you trust know, and ask them to be with you for a while until you feel a bit more positive about your situation. Perhaps they can talk with you and help you to see things from another perspective.

We are all here for you. Please share your emotions and talk it out if you want, but don't hurt yourself! You are too awesome!

[Shaka]

Don't think it's over, your seventeen and you have more love if you can bring yourself back to try. Love isn't about someone else Holli, love's about caring so much about life that you will bring yourself and anyone you get to up, there's no love that makes us feel bad. You cared for him and you wanted to love him, allot by the sounds of it. Give your own self the same time of day that you'd give for anybody else. You really can heal a liver, as you didn't mention being in a hospital ward for it. If you don't believe that you can start trying to convince yourself by searching up "How to heal an injured liver" "liver etoxification" and follow the wholistic advice. A few things that might help:

Drink more water. Drink More water.
Drink more water. Drink More Water Regularly.
Drink more water, and drink more water.
Also try to go easy on your stomach, good and organic foods can help allot and if your parents aren't too stifled for money you can ask their help in ernest.

I knew a friend with cancer, Holli, she'd had it in her sinuses, liver, brain, throat, lungs, and just about all over because of what she'd been exposed to in a severely traumatic time in the army, exposed to all sorts of bad stuff, and presently I would assume she can kick the but of most anybody who tried to take advantage of her and is overall healthy ten years later and that's because she took healing seriously, did everything she could, researched it, worked out, changed her diet, drank exuberant amounts of water and intended to get better.

A hospital can't tell you all the things that you can do, they can't actually expect you to try, because they do all teh work themselves, but healing is your work, and no healer can heal you without your willingness to work on it too.

Good luck to you Holli, and take heart, there are more who love you then that one careless boy.

[Mortal Coil]

Holli I'm so sorry about this :hug: and I know that saying sorry doesn't change anything, nothing can, but it's true. I'm sorry to hear about this.
It is possible to live a fulfilling life with liver damage, and I wish you nothing but the best. If you ever need any support then please message me because I'm here for you. It sounds like the damage is irreparable, but the human body is a marvelous thing and if you take healing seriously I have faith in the idea that you can repair some of that damage. Stay strong.

[Texas warrior]

I was in love with a girl that was like the guy you loved, for three years are relationship ended last summer I was love sick for four months. It was the worst time of my life, but I got through it, and so will you.