i'm the worlds most hated person :(

[ackmedsgirl666]

can i ever forgive myself.... probably not...
will i ever get over him.... probably not... atleast as long as i have this tattoo.
my life has become hell without him.... why did all this have to happen
why does everything seem to happen to me :(
you have no idea how much i hate myself right now and how much i wish i could end my life... to make him happy... and take back everything i have done to hurt him...
why did i let everything fall apart... why did i change him... why did i make him become what he is now.... "jailbait" he was a good kid before i got to him
i ruined his life... i ended up fucking up everything
we were happy.. making plans for the future.... truly happy with one another... but then one day all was lost.... he was with another girl one day... and i assumed they were cheating because i recieved text messages which i found out a few days later werent from him.... it was his mom and the girl.. his mom wanted to ruin everything...... and she succeeded..

i broke up with him with a heavy heart and tears in my eyes.. and then i got together with someone else before full recovering.
the guy i went to was my best friend mikey.. and i am still with him to this day.. but the past 10 months have been hard. i havent been able to get cody off of my mind and its tearing me and my boyfriend mikey apart. i cry at night and get nightmares of his family coming after me....his mom especially, his big brother and many other people.

i have been texting him and trying to get him to talk to me but he ignores me :'( and i feel like i lost the world when he was gone.. i wanna try and get him back but then i wodner whats the use...what good would it do...

i need serious advice. if theres anybody on here who can help me..... it would be great.... :(

[AkuRokuStalker]

I know it can be hard getting over someone I recently lost a boyfriend I loved with all my heart and would give my soul for him. It was six months ago and I still miss him. Luckly I moved right after we broke up so I don't have to even look at him, but I still ask my other friends about him. still ask if he is dating someone new. When I look back on our time together all I feel is happiness no matter how bad he hurt me. I recomend to stop talking to him. When you start to think about him call up someone to cheer you up.(but don't tell them its because you are thinking about him because they will want to talk about him then.) C'all your new boyfriend if you have to. Then lastly, don't even look at him. The more you see him the more you will remeber. I do agree that you did not give yourself enough time to heal. If this relationship is to hard on your heart then tell him yall need to wait untill you get over this first guy. Your best friend probably really likes you and doesn't want to see you like this, espicially over another guy. I really hope this helps.

[ackmedsgirl666]

thanks that helped alot
im surprised somebody actually took the time to read this. :)