Suicide seems great these days

[Armor_King]

Two months ago I would have chickened out of killing myself, but now it seems like a good idea. I would probably go through with it. There's plenty of guns in the house I could use. I had so many urges today. No one but my family would miss me. I would rather do it now than later just to get it over with.

I hardly even have a "life" at all. Just go on the internet all day. Neglecting the schoolwork I am "supossed" to be doing. I am spoiled. I am a weakling. I am fat. I am not as intelligent as they want me to think. They act as if I have the highest IQ in the world, but I know I'm not smart. My "life" hasn't got better in a year. It's been 1 whole year, and I'm even lower than the same time last year. I no longer have friends. I don't even go to normal school like everyone else. It's pretty obvious to everyone that I am a failure. "Going nowhere in life" they say. I think the only point of life is to live. Yet I have no idea how I could "live" in my current state.

I am just useless wasste of time, money, and space. I don't have any reason why I should go on. What does it even feel like to live? I completely forgot. I don't even feel like a human. I bet dog's have better lives than I do. Do squirrels get depressed? I'm so pitful. If you saw me you would pity me. You would never want to be me. You would rather be a 3rd world child. Much stronger, more will to live.

I can't do anything. I just waste resources. The strangest part is that everyone thinks I am happy. I must be so lucky to be able to afford an HDTV and go out to eat once a week. I must be so happy. These things don't change the fact I am a failure of a human being. No one likes me. They look at me in disgust. I look like a retard. I look stupid. I'm not sure if I am stupid or not. Maybe If I was retarded people wouldn't hate me as much. I might not be able to see how pitiful I am. I will probably not do it. I need more time to think. I feel 90% sure about this. I really want to die. I can't take it anymore.

[Wolf44]

dude I thought I wanted to kill my self to and in a lot of ways im like u like how people think im smart but im not and I spend a lot of my time on electronics to I people bulled me (and still do) and also thought my life would go no where then my sister was diagnosed with cancer she almost died and did go blind and when u walk through a hospital seeing people a lot worse off than u u start thinking to your self your life is not that bad the point of the story is that correct me if im wrong but from what I read your life could be worse and u could turn your life around easily if u don't like being overweight u should do more outdoor activates and then maybe people at your school might like u more if you did a sport or two and if they don't fuck them who cares what they think and if u want to be more useful around your house u might do more chores

if what I said helps great if it dosant ignore everything I said pm me if this helps u though

[ackmedsgirl666]

suicide is never the answer....
think of all the people that woul;d be hurting over your loss....
once your gone your forever gone
the best way to avoid suicide is by getting help....
if you need to talk to somebody call kids help phone... or a suicide line..
talk to them. they give you answers and can help you

[Armor_King]

I don't feel like I can do anything else. I am overweight, and i lost 20 pounds once, but regained it. There are no people at my school. I'm online schooled now. All the people = my grandparents (maybe), my mom, my dad(maybe), my brothers. No one outside my family will care. No one can bring me back to have a real childhood. No one I call can help me. They will most likely just call the police/ambulance. My dad and his wife will want custody of me, even though I hate my dad's wife and never want to live in the same State as her.

[Inventor2]

Suicide is for people who give up, people who dont care about anyone else. Suicide is selfish and a terriblething to do to your family. It would be down right evil to put ur parents through that. No matter how bad it gets it always gets better. And no, a year is not long enough. Of what you could live, a year is nothing. Do give up, stay strong

[Mike753]

You only have one life, there's no reason to waste it because your current state in live isn't the best. I've gone through a lot, and so have most of the people on this forum -- there's no reason to quit. I think one thing teens don't get is that life changes, my school years were total crap, and I put up with a lot, and I myself did think about suicide at one point; I used to be mean to my dad who I lived with, yet now when I look back I'm glad I am who I am and how I was raised since it makes me a better person and I can talk to others more easy now about stuff. You need to look forward, keep going and find what's ahead in future. You're not stuck in one place forever, keep that in mind.

Whenever I write posts like this, I change my keyboard back-light to red. When I'm done, I change it back to light blue, because everything is better afterwards. :)

[Ryhanna]

No matter how bleak life looks for you right now, trust me, chances are that it will get better. It's not fair to deny yourself the opportunity to experience how great life can be.

Please, if you're having immediate suicidal thoughts, call a suicide hotline or 911. See a doctor or a counsellor. Talk to somebody who can help you through this. Suicide might seem like an instant fix to your problems, but it's not. It's really, really not.

[Will Grigg's on Fire]

Don't worry. I guarantee that things will get better. Suicide is just a permanent solution for temporary problems that will do nothing but make those around you devastated.

It isn't worth it, trust me. I at times too felt suicidal, but I kept going and today I am so happy with my life!

I know this may seem cliche' but trust me, I mean every word here. As they say, life is a roller coaster and you are just going through a rough patch with your lows now. Before you know it things will pick up and your life will be good!

[Tribute]

Suicide doesn't help, I know for a fact that every single person who has ever wanted to suicide (and failed) has regret doing so. Things do get better, over time if you do something about it. Trying to fix the problem by ending your own life is not on - don't let your whole life end over a few problems. Live life to the fullest.

[Armor_King]

I just don't see it. I've always been a loser. I've always been inferior to everyone else. For that to just change one day seems impossible. How come it has never happened before? In 15 years it hasn't happened. Most of my life has been dull and sad. I can't see it being amazing in the future like you say. It only seems to get worse. 4 years ago I was thinking that my life has only gone downhill, and that maybe it will get better. But it has continued to go down hill. Everything just keeps getting worse and worse. I can't see in my mind what any of you are talking about. Everything I do just seems to be a temporary solution to a permanent problem, and I'm the permanent problem.

[Twilly F. Sniper]

suicide is never the answer....
think of all the people that woul;d be hurting over your loss....
once your gone your forever gone
the best way to avoid suicide is by getting help....
if you need to talk to somebody call kids help phone... or a suicide line..
talk to them. they give you answers and can help you

This I learned a few months ago. And is true.

[Person_Of_Interest]

I'm going trough a thing like that right now. I think of what would be good about suicide, and then I think of the family and friends. Mos situations that's what brings me back. I have many friends (like 20 or so close friends) and I'm very close to my family. This is one of the places that YOLO really means something. Once you go, you go. There's no second chance so please man, think about this carefully. You need to tell someone, so they'll actually know what things are like for you and so you can get help. If you really think you're gonna do it, call 1-800-784-2433 they might talk you out of it. Please, Don't Do It

[sunnydave]

i was in that space a few months ago and sought help - crisis lines, therapy, whatever it took. A lot of people are affected by what you do. It cannot be the only option. You have to keep finding others. If you can't do it now then call someone and speak to them - tell them everything.

[Mike-T]

If you havnt already, go to youtube and watch Woody'sGamertag and look up the videos about his teenage years. He attempted suicide as a kid and now hes a big youtube talent. Suicide is not the answer.
My suggestion is to go out and buy some new clothes... "start over". Meet new people, etc. Also, go to ths gym. Work out a bit. You need some motivation so start looking for somethin that makes you want to get in shape. Trust me... Working out will definitely make you feel better about yourself.

Dont give up. Try something new.

Sorry for major spelling errors i typed this on my phone because i had to respond asap.

Dont give up!

[Texas warrior]

Life is about being happy, and fuck the bastards that would say other wise. I would rather be a fat happy bastard that a miserable brain surgeon. If eating potato chips and looking and porn, or playing video games makes you happy than great some people don't know what makes them happy, they are the ones to be pityed, not you. You have only got one life to live, so live your life the way YOU want to. Because when its gone it's gone. Just think about how lucky you are to be alive, how lucky your are to exist. So before we return to oblivion, should not we make the moment that is are lives as fun as posable?

[unusedaccount]

Jacob, suicide is selfish, stupid, and the act of a coward. Seek some professional help, or confide in a friend you are comfortable sharing your issues with. The first step to solving the issues your facing is asking for help.