ariel22
November 14th, 2012, 12:54 PM
PLEASE READ IT, YOU GUYS ARE MY ONLY CHANCE
Hey mates.. ask me or not but i feel depression. a really deep kind of depression..:/.
i falled in love for the first time in a crappy situation.
im 13, and theres a girl in our class. also theres my best friend, a boy (not gay)
i was falling in love for like 2 years.. since i was 12, i was very fat.
i was 140 cm tall and weight above 80 kilograms.
the girl, fantastic girl, maked me wanna start do a diet.
summer break came and i did an agressive diet, about 25 kilos for 3 month.
i was proud at myself, thinking about that girl. couldnt wait no longer, wanted to meet her again so bad.
here comes my friend to the picture.
i was talking to her. ''here and there''.. no personal stuff, or something with trust.. just talked, on school, and wussup and like that.
im very shy and she is the only girl i was talking to her without any fear..
i toled her she is pretty, she said im cute and started bond to me more but this is it for now.
i dont think she thinks that about me till now, it was for like 3 days and over.
i expected that. my best friend also think she is pretty. seems she likes him more then me, AND ITS KILLING ME, feeling im eaten, alive.
jealousy isnt the right thing, and i usualy dont like that, he is a cool bro though, But sometimes i think i want to just kill him.
he has a girlfriend, but he is still trying to flirt with her, allso i said to him that i love her very much and he still. well idk i wouldnt call it a flirt but still.
i saw hes facebook chat with her. pretty usual. but they're chat seems to be more interesting then our chat(me and her).
Im trying to forget her. cant.
2 years of damn misery, with awful feelings. my friend and her speaking more then me and her. and that fact just killing me.
i know i cant say to my friend to leave her alone, who am i by saying that, hes mom? but i still need to figure it out.
please tell me what to do, or give me advices to make us more bond (girls can be great at that though), IM BEGGING YOU GUYS, please :'(
Hey mates.. ask me or not but i feel depression. a really deep kind of depression..:/.
i falled in love for the first time in a crappy situation.
im 13, and theres a girl in our class. also theres my best friend, a boy (not gay)
i was falling in love for like 2 years.. since i was 12, i was very fat.
i was 140 cm tall and weight above 80 kilograms.
the girl, fantastic girl, maked me wanna start do a diet.
summer break came and i did an agressive diet, about 25 kilos for 3 month.
i was proud at myself, thinking about that girl. couldnt wait no longer, wanted to meet her again so bad.
here comes my friend to the picture.
i was talking to her. ''here and there''.. no personal stuff, or something with trust.. just talked, on school, and wussup and like that.
im very shy and she is the only girl i was talking to her without any fear..
i toled her she is pretty, she said im cute and started bond to me more but this is it for now.
i dont think she thinks that about me till now, it was for like 3 days and over.
i expected that. my best friend also think she is pretty. seems she likes him more then me, AND ITS KILLING ME, feeling im eaten, alive.
jealousy isnt the right thing, and i usualy dont like that, he is a cool bro though, But sometimes i think i want to just kill him.
he has a girlfriend, but he is still trying to flirt with her, allso i said to him that i love her very much and he still. well idk i wouldnt call it a flirt but still.
i saw hes facebook chat with her. pretty usual. but they're chat seems to be more interesting then our chat(me and her).
Im trying to forget her. cant.
2 years of damn misery, with awful feelings. my friend and her speaking more then me and her. and that fact just killing me.
i know i cant say to my friend to leave her alone, who am i by saying that, hes mom? but i still need to figure it out.
please tell me what to do, or give me advices to make us more bond (girls can be great at that though), IM BEGGING YOU GUYS, please :'(