Dangoblin
November 13th, 2012, 09:27 PM
I have no idea where to begin. About a month and a half ago, I was completely fine. I actually never felt better. I had finally come out of the closet and ended up with a boyfriend. Now that my thoughts about coming out and all have dissipated, I'm starting to get new thoughts. I'm realizing how insecure I am, and how much I hate myself.
I'm now anorexic because of it, I've lost 10lbs in a month, and my self-harming just shot through the roof.
My boyfriend knows that I cut and am anorexic. He doesn't like it and tries his best to make me feel better about myself. But no matter what anyone does, it just doesn't help. I hate my reactions to stuff. I hate my body. I just hate everything about myself. Far too many times have i compared myself to my boyfriend. In my eyes, he's the almost perfect everything. I don't even get why he likes me.
I really just need advice. Why am I so insecure and hate myself so much?
Thanks in advance
I'm now anorexic because of it, I've lost 10lbs in a month, and my self-harming just shot through the roof.
My boyfriend knows that I cut and am anorexic. He doesn't like it and tries his best to make me feel better about myself. But no matter what anyone does, it just doesn't help. I hate my reactions to stuff. I hate my body. I just hate everything about myself. Far too many times have i compared myself to my boyfriend. In my eyes, he's the almost perfect everything. I don't even get why he likes me.
I really just need advice. Why am I so insecure and hate myself so much?
Thanks in advance