i need to talk about it *sexual abuse*

[HandheldOutlaw]

i remember more. idk what to do.
oh God.


*edit* it ate my post? sorry.



***** may trigger.
not sure if i can trust my own memories.

long story short. was raped by my dad from a young age.


he said God told him to God told him because im wicked and bad and ugly
& he wantrd to teach me guilt & pain and it hurts im wicked. he said bad because i tempted him & im bad and needed to be punished because im not good enough and im going to hell.


im wicked and bad. badbadbadbad.

[Noirtier]

No, hun, you're not wicked, and you're not bad. What your father did to you was horrible, disgusting, and unacceptable. He took advantage of you, and tried to make it sound like it was your fault. But it's not your fault at all. All the responsibility for those actions are his, and frankly it was illegal for him to do. God did NOT tell him to do that, and you are NOT wicked, or bad, or ugly. I know he hurt you a lot, but it wasn't your fault. If you haven't already gotten out of that environment and away from him, do so as soon as you can, and even telling the police wouldn't be a bad idea if you think you're ready to. He did a horrible thing to you, and I'm sorry that he did. I would advise you to try and see a therapist about this, but whether you are able to or not, all of us are here for you, and we care about you. :hug3:

[HandheldOutlaw]

ty but i am bad.
:(
i am away. i live with my aunt and uncle and they don't think I'm bad and wicked either.
i feel dirty and i want him away it never goes away ever. i can't sleep or else it happens again and i see it like im someone else. i wish i were someone else.
im seeing a therapist and she makes me talk about it and what i don't remember. but its hard bc... i don't want to remember

[Stronk Serb]

i remember more. idk what to do.
oh God.


*edit* it ate my post? sorry.



***** may trigger.
not sure if i can trust my own memories.

long story short. was raped by my dad from a young age.


he said God told him to God told him because im wicked and bad and ugly
& he wantrd to teach me guilt & pain and it hurts im wicked. he said bad because i tempted him & im bad and needed to be punished because im not good enough and im going to hell.


im wicked and bad. badbadbadbad.

He is.a bad, wicked, dirty, ugly-ass son of a bitch, not you, you are a beacon of morality compared to him. He will burn in hell along Hitler and other maniacs, not you, you will go to Heaven after a happy lifetime and you will be happy in there. I hate when people use religion as an excuse to do things like these, people like that deserve pure hell.
I hope you will get better, and your dad, he will be judged, he will get his sentence, in Hell.

[ECSTASY]

ty but i am bad.
:(
i am away. i live with my aunt and uncle and they don't think I'm bad and wicked either.
i feel dirty and i want him away it never goes away ever. i can't sleep or else it happens again and i see it like im someone else. i wish i were someone else.
im seeing a therapist and she makes me talk about it and what i don't remember. but its hard bc... i don't want to remember

C'mon mate... you are not ugly,bad or wicked . it's just a fetch for him when you ask the reason . :)
i'm wondering how cruel could somebody be to do such things :/ :(

[HandheldOutlaw]

Thanks everyone so much
Quite dissociated at the moment.
So sorry
@Ninja
It's bad to say but I do hope he goes to hell.
:/

@Cena
He was cruel a lot.
Sometimes he was affectionate but I still felt unsafe around him.

[Stronk Serb]

Thanks everyone so much
Quite dissociated at the moment.
So sorry
@Ninja
It's bad to say but I do hope he goes to hell.
:/

@Cena
He was cruel a lot.
Sometimes he was affectionate but I still felt unsafe around him.


Family is not made out of blood lines only, they are there to strenghthen the bond of being a family, when your dad did that, he has cut off those bonds, so, you do not have to see him as
family, you can forgive him or not, but what he did to you, I would not forgive him, so I can understand your hatred. Good luck, and get well soon!

[PrimedPenguin]

How dare he do that. Your a nice beautiful and the opposite of wicked. Your father on the other hand is a stupid, ugly, son of bitch and will get raped in hell. Stay strong its the past now keep moving forward towards your goals and everything will work out.

[Texas warrior]

You dad is a monster. When he talks, only shit comes out. Don't lesson to a word he has to say, He will lie to you to make himself feel better.

[HandheldOutlaw]

Thank you both

[ayelove100]

i remember more. idk what to do.
oh God.


*edit* it ate my post? sorry.



***** may trigger.
not sure if i can trust my own memories.

long story short. was raped by my dad from a young age.


he said God told him to God told him because im wicked and bad and ugly
& he wantrd to teach me guilt & pain and it hurts im wicked. he said bad because i tempted him & im bad and needed to be punished because im not good enough and im going to hell.


im wicked and bad. badbadbadbad.
Your dad was just trying to make an execuse and thats really bad to do that to anyone especially his own daughter. Don't listen to him and I wish you the best of luck :)

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Family is not made out of blood lines only, they are there to strenghthen the bond of being a family, when your dad did that, he has cut off those bonds, so, you do not have to see him as
family, you can forgive him or not, but what he did to you, I would not forgive him, so I can understand your hatred. Good luck, and get well soon!

Ninja knows it. Family isnt just those related by blood, family can be friends even who are like family! Plus you dont need to love your family, it sounds mean but yes you got circumstances like here where if you dont, theres nothing wrong with it. But like said above, your father doesnt need to be spoken of or included as family. I dont know him, Id rather not... I hate that sick freaking SOB. I am refraining from bad words, but with me on the subject of rape... Its a touchy subject and basically right up there with murder on how bad it is. If you dont forgive him thats not your fault, you shouldnt have to forgive him. I am so sorry he did this to you, you never deserved it! Dont think about the words he said to you, they arent true at all! I hope you feel better soon. :hug:

[HandheldOutlaw]

Thank you al so much
Srry I've wasted all your time I give up :'(

[Stronk Serb]

You did not waste my time. Always remember that you are a beacon of morality compared to milions of people that live on this fucked up world, never give up, the world will always be full of scum, but the good people will always prevail.

[HandheldOutlaw]

Thx. I really just can't cope anymore. I think I need to go to the hospital for a bit
im going to do something super ... bad

[iboy888]

Rape is a serious crime. Go and report your father. Since I believe you are under the age of majority now, the crime may be classed as child rape.

Go tell anyone you trust (teacher, counsellor, coach, police). Things will work out.

I have a lot of sympathy for you; this was never supposed to happen.