stupid situation

[ReverseFall]

im trying to stop cutting made it like 3 days i think? But now idk if i can keep it up. To much fucking stress. And now my gf (not rly anymore) is fucking screaming at me on txt bcuz i asked her sister for emo bands??? wtf? i can feel the neeed to cut like screaming in my head if i do itll all fade away so quick... and all because of this stupid girl that i dont even know if i fucking like anymore bcuz shes all shot to hell n tried to kill herself like 3 weeks ago. Every single time i try to change myself the people who mean the most to me, the people who i wish could help me, turn on me and hate what i am. My mom wouldnt let me miss school because she thought i was going to stay home and cut myself even though i told her ive stopped. The only things that havent turned on me are my razors and jenn. Thats the only thing thats always helped me. I want to start it again because i know it will help so much but i promised my ex gf i wouldnt, but that promise doesnt really matter anymore i guess

sorry this is so rambling getting my thoughts were people can see them calms me down

[lyriclover]

Try making a "burn book". Write down everything that's bugging you nd everything you want to say to people. Write down every complaint you have and when you feel like cutting rip a few pages out of the book and burn them. Put a picture of her in the book then burn the picture.

[Kelasta]

If you cut it'll just cause more problems, i've been cut free for around maybe 8 months now? I just realized that when you cut it causes more problems, and with your mum and all that it might make it worse, when you're angry and upset try some other methods like butterfly project, burn book (^^^), putting ice on your skin etc. Things will only work out if you take them step by step and figure out what you really want. Probs not much help but we're always here for a chat :)

[ReverseFall]

I made it without Pulled out the old ipod n cranked it all the way up thanks ill try that book idea