the urges have returned :'(

[Castle of Glass]

So a couple weeks ago, my urges to self harm and cut were small, maybe ever now and then, but since my dad has come home from his business trip, my urges have returned. it is not that he is abuses or anything, it is just that him, my mom, and my brother disagree with a lot of things and i am caught in the middle of it all, three forces trying to rip me into pieces to help that one side. but since he returned last Monday, my urges have grown larger and larger. they have grown so large that i nearly cut myself Friday, yesterday, and today :( hopefully i can control it. and hopefully they(rest of my family) doesn't shout at each other. and in addition to that, the shouting always brings back memories of my grandmother and the times we had :cry:

[Wakesetter03]

Whatever happens man, the answer isn't cutting yourself. Self harm will just make you spiral lower into whatever depression you have.
What seriously helped when I had depression, I would through myself into exercise whenever I was down, and put all of my frustrations into it.
Not only does this distract you, but when you're finished you have endorphins pumping which actually help your mood.
Cardio, and running in particular, are proven to help with depression and anxiety.

Good luck, but whatever you do, DON'T CUT.