I Relapsed...

[Person_Of_Interest]

I just started cutting again after a screaming fight with my Mom (who I couldn't live without) and ran up to my room and dug up the pocket knife I usually use and cut like 60 lines on top of my forearm. It felt WAY too good for me to stopand it kinda got out of control and I cut for an hour thinking about all the things that are going shitty (Grades, ADHD, self hate, Bullying, fighting with my parents, and the urge I always get to just shut everything out and go to my daydream land that is pretty much worse than life is right now for me) and imagined that with every drop of blood that appeared, I conquered one of my stresses for one second. They weren't crazy cuts, so ill be fine, but the will be healing for a while. Ughhh, DAMN! I can't believe I relapsed! I want to stop but I never can.......

[HandheldOutlaw]

Hey, I'm sorry to hear things are so rough right now. </3
I'm here if you ever need to talk it out.

Self harm is an addiction, as powerful as a drug. But you can overcome it. It will be difficult atbtimes, but it gets easier, and life is better without it. Relax, setbacks will occur.
Just remember you can always go forward again, and strive for recovery always.

How long did you go without?

Be gentle with yourself.

Xx Laur

[Person_Of_Interest]

I went a month. Thanks a lot; I needed something to make me happier

[HandheldOutlaw]

A month is wonderful, and proof that you are capable of stopping. :)
I don't know you but I am proud of you. :)

Cutting won't make you happier, once the endorphins slow, you're left with not only the same issues you were dealing with before, but also bad feelings from knowing you've done something you shouldn't, as well as some physical pains from the wounds.

Please do keep them clean.
I hope you feel better soon