Sydels
November 10th, 2012, 08:01 PM
So two nights ago, Thursday, I was hanging out with this guy in his truck after practice at about 7pm and no one was around. We have been not-very-close friends for two years. He's a year older than me. And I start kidding about how we should have sex. But then starts talking like he really wants to. I've never done anything sexual before with anyone so I didn't really know what to. But he starts rubbing my leg. And slowly gets closer to "there" and it feels nice and I want to keep going so I don't stop him. He starts touching me and I just sit there because I'm so nervous. This goes on for about 3 minutes when my mom shows up so I have to leave. As I'm getting out of his truck he tells me to text him and that we should finish later. I tell him I agree. So about an hour later I text him and ask if he was serious about finishing and he says he was, so I ask him when? He says Friday after school. And I'm all for it. And then I have to go to bed so I tell him good night and go to bed. I don't talk to him all day Friday and when school is over I text him but he never answers and then I see him leaving to go get lunch without even saying anything to me. That kind of makes me nervous about him not meaning it, but I figure he just wants to wait until Friday night after the football game (we are both in marching band) so he gets back and I talk to him during practice but not about "that" so then the day goes normally and I don't get anymore chances to talk to him. That night before we are getting dressed to go to the football game, he says he has a headache and isn't going to preform tonight. But once we get to the game he is there anyway sitting in the stands. I don't get a chance to talk to him at the game. But when it's over and I'm back in the band room he comes in to talk to his friends. I stop him and ask him if he is going home. He says yes so I'm like ok, text me. He leaves and then I go home and pass out. Today, Saturday, I wake up about 9am and he's hasn't texted me, so I wait until about 12:30pm until I text him just to say hey. It's now 8pm and he hasn't answered me. I don't know what happened to make him change his mind and totally ignore, but it really makes me mad. I'm made because he is acting like nothin happened and he's ignoring me. I'm mad because I wish I would have been braver to do something in his truck and not just sit there. And I'm am upset because I was so excited for "it" to happen and it hasn't. I don't know what to do. If he texted me now I don't know if I would be strong enough to tell him to go away or if I would still just do whatever because my hormones are so crazy. Advice would be appreciated, but really I just needed to say something because I can't tell anybody in my family and only one of friends know.