the lies..

[that-god-chick]

so im chirstian and one of the things iv been tought is that lying is wrong, but when it comes to this i just cant help myself and lies are getting more and more offten, tonight i got asked if im still cutting and without a second thought i just said no and lied straight out now dont get me wrong this was a good lie as it me from the disapointment but i still feel bad when i do it. does anyone elase get this or is it just me...
its got to the point now where i lie about weather im happy, weather iv cut, weather iv ate... is this a bad thing or am i doing the right thing??? i just cant stand the dissapointment and judgement from others

[Mortal Coil]

Lying isn't good, and neither is bottling up your feelings. However, if you know that telling the truth would emotionally harm people (either your parents would react badly and possibly hurt you, or something similar,) then lying is acceptable. I hope you are getting help, because hiding your feelings from your parents is one thing - and something very common in people like us - but you really do need some support. I hope you're doing okay. Please try not to give yourself grief over lying. It's the disease, not you.

[that-god-chick]

Lying isn't good, and neither is bottling up your feelings. However, if you know that telling the truth would emotionally harm people (either your parents would react badly and possibly hurt you, or something similar,) then lying is acceptable. I hope you are getting help, because hiding your feelings from your parents is one thing - and something very common in people like us - but you really do need some support. I hope you're doing okay. Please try not to give yourself grief over lying. It's the disease, not you.

its not only my parents and my family but also most of my friends, i know none of them would ever react that bad but its just the fear of judement and disapointment that i cant stand iv let them down so many times before i cant stand to do it anymore, so its just better for me and them if they dont know.. im talking to a youth worker who is helping me but still i hide stuff from her as well... i cant help but give myself grieft (as u put it) as i am going against something i believe in and its starting to get to me..

[Elvalight]

You could make an imaginary friend :) If you can't I can always give you one of mine, like one that was a missfire for a book( I'm a to-be writer) I've had it bad myself, even though I've never cut myself, but I do know the feeling of just wanting it to all be over :( There is one thing called the... butterfly way, where you draw a butterfly wherever you cut youself with a pen and if you end up cutting it the butterfly dies DX Here's my youtube channel, if you just need a pickup. :) http://www.youtube.com/user/lightnightparade?feature=results_main

[that-god-chick]

You could make an imaginary friend :) If you can't I can always give you one of mine, like one that was a missfire for a book( I'm a to-be writer) I've had it bad myself, even though I've never cut myself, but I do know the feeling of just wanting it to all be over :( There is one thing called the... butterfly way, where you draw a butterfly wherever you cut youself with a pen and if you end up cutting it the butterfly dies DX Here's my youtube channel, if you just need a pickup. :) http://www.youtube.com/user/lightnightparade?feature=results_main

iv tired the butterfly effect but it just made me feel worse because i couldn,t stop and i felt as though i was hurting everyone i loved so i stoped doing it for the pure fact that i made me feel worse

[Elvalight]

D: It's time you learned just how strong you are. <:) Nothing, no obstacle, no person and no emotion or force of your mind can make you do what you say no to. All you have to do is learn just how much you can change even youself. If you know that you are just as strong as any superhero(may seem weird, but true :)) and that your mind was created to do your will. In fact, the only reason you're actually having these problems is because of your mind. It was caused by memories of things that hurt you( most common and that's what happened for me) and I find that nothing can be impossible, if only you let yourself forget the sadness. Sadness is a person: a person who is also happiness, if you just get to know it. I actually named my EMOTIONS at one time and I named that person Molly :) ( yeah, I'm wierd.)

[that-god-chick]

im not strong im far from it that is y i am never able to stop, this is y so many people think m fucked up, this is y i let so many people down, this is y its better to lie... im so over people telling me that im depressed because of myself no i do not chose to be fucking depressed as if anyone would chose this...