Still depressed...

[Aquila]

Hi. Again.

For the last year+, I've been really depressed. Throughout my senior year of high school, I hated myself, who I was, etc. Even now, that high school is over, I still feel this way. I've entered college, and I actually have found people that care for me but... I still have these feelings. A lot.

I still feel like they'll get sick of seeing me depressed, and they'll want to leave, just like everyone else who's known about this side of me has. Tonight, the feelings of depression and paranoia got worse then they ever have before. It was like I was being buried alive.

So... What do I do? I've made a close friend that knows all this, and has been great about it all, but I'm still feeling paranoid. I'm not sure what to do anymore, or why I'm even writing this... I guess so I can just get it out there...

[Noirtier]

Hi. Again.

For the last year+, I've been really depressed. Throughout my senior year of high school, I hated myself, who I was, etc. Even now, that high school is over, I still feel this way. I've entered college, and I actually have found people that care for me but... I still have these feelings. A lot.

I still feel like they'll get sick of seeing me depressed, and they'll want to leave, just like everyone else who's known about this side of me has. Tonight, the feelings of depression and paranoia got worse then they ever have before. It was like I was being buried alive.

So... What do I do? I've made a close friend that knows all this, and has been great about it all, but I'm still feeling paranoid. I'm not sure what to do anymore, or why I'm even writing this... I guess so I can just get it out there...

Well, I'll be honest: You've done just about everything you can, and your life is beginning to go fairly decently. The fact that you're still feeling this way indicates to me that you might have clinical depression or anxiety of some sort. I would highly recommend seeing a specialist about this, and seeing if they can prescribe any sort of medication to help you with this. Because if you're still feeling this way, it's very possibly a chemical imbalance in your brain, which can only be fixed or aided by medication. Whether you do that or not is up to you, and regardless of what you do we'll all be here to support you :hug3: