Old habits die hard.

[drsonoma]

I was doing well for some months, then a few days ago I fucked up and started doing it again. Today I sliced my upper right arm with a straight razor, and it felt good, though it's not a good thing to be doing. I took my straight razor and placed it on my arm. I gave it a hard yank, and almost instantly the blood started flowing. I tasted, and that salty taste. I really don't know why I started this again; I hadn't been cutting since October or November of 2004. Does anyone have any thoughts regarding this matter?

[CrAzY-TBonE]

dude why the hell wud u cut yourself? thats so bad for your body. Edit Out and give into the thoughts of cutting. i was depressed, and i got on meds and now im happier then ever. mayb u shud get meds?? (ive never cut, Edit Out)

Edited by Mute

[drsonoma]

I cut out of depression, and I cut so I know that I am able to deal with physical pain. I've found mental or emotional pain to be so much worse.

[Lost_and_fallen]

dude why the hell wud u cut yourself? thats so bad for your body. Edit Out and give into the thoughts of cutting. i was depressed, and i got on meds and now im happier then ever. mayb u shud get meds?? (ive never cut, Edit Out)

Edited by Mute

Can you not comment on something you know nothing about. Sorry to have a go at you but I found that pretty insulting..

drsonoma, did anything happen to make you start again? If something triggered it, try and deal with that problem quickly. If you can't figure out why you did it, try and think of an alternative, like flicking a hair band on your wrist etc. Well done on lasting so long without cutting before btw.

- Laura

[drsonoma]

I started again out of depression. I had the notion that if I cut myself, it'd make the depression stop for awhile. It did, but only for a brief time.

Depression has hit me since my dad died, but not like this. I was depressed before he died, but afterwards, the intensity of this increased. Thanks for the advice and the congrulations on staying cut free.

[Oath]

ive been cut free for a really long time and i always want to just pick up anything sharp and slice my arm. but i never did! i always wanted to see the blood running down just to no that im still living my life. but every time i think of that stuff i also think of my mom (she died when i was 7). i new my mom wouldnt be proud of me if i did that to my self i no she wouldnt have wanted me to end my life like that. so just think of your dad. think of how disappointed he would be if you ended your life being a cutter. think of all the people who love you.

ya no whats funny as im writing this i just noticed im bleeding NOT FROM A CUT from a bug bite it just accidentaly scratched it open. well im still alive.

so stop thinking of depression think about you family and the people that love you

[Oath]

Hopefully that helps you...???

[drsonoma]

Sorry about time delay; I've been out of town away from my computer. I don't believe my dad would be happy to see me cutting, but I don't plan to kill myself. Not sure if this makes sense or not.