Reaching out.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I keep reaching out and reaching out and nothing ever gets done.

I've just given in to the urges. They're deeper than before. They're not serious, but for me and where they are... its not normal for me. It's scaring me. I don't know what to do.

They hurt... But I want to do more. ALOT more. And deeper... that's what scares me. I cant get the thoughts out my head. The constant... need... want.

I'm falling into the pit again. I'm starting to lose it.

[Jupiter]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Listen, hun. It's not your fault. You aren't doing it wrong, you're just reaching out to the wrong people. Some people can't understand what it's like to live with a monster in your mind tempting you over and over to hurt yourself. It's the only thing that you want sometimes. But you need to remember that you are stronger than that, girly. I have total faith in you, and I want you to know that I know what you're going through. If you need someone to talk to, go ahead and personal message me. Just remember that you are beautiful, and strong. <3

[lyriclover]

Find friends that will help you. Suround yourself with positive things. Try to eliminate whatever made you cut in the first place. Have you tried the rubber band thing before? It helped me a lot.

[Jupiter]

Find friends that will help you. Suround yourself with positive things. Try to eliminate whatever made you cut in the first place. Have you tried the rubber band thing before? It helped me a lot.

You see, the thing about the rubber band thing is that snapping a rubberband on your wrist is also considered self harm, which would really be like out of the fryer and into the fire.

[lyriclover]

Well sometimes its easyer to just reduce the intenity little by little than to stop all together.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Find friends that will help you. Suround yourself with positive things. Try to eliminate whatever made you cut in the first place. Have you tried the rubber band thing before? It helped me a lot.

Friends is a funny word. Something so many people throw around, but how many can say that they have true friends, that would do anything, that won't be mad if you ring at stupid o'clock in the morning. I certainly don't. I can't find friends, I don't go out very often, college I can't seem to connect properly with anyone there, work I don't feel close enough to any of them to talk to them.

Positive things? Yeah right I should be so lucky. Eliminate what made me cut in the first place? Quite difficult when it's memories, feelings, thoughts.

And tried the elastic band, and ice cubes and just about everything under the sun.

Sorry if I come across in a bad way... still not quite there yet.

[lyriclover]

Um, idk. Find a suport group in your area? Im still in high school so I don't know what it's really like out in the big bad world. Have you tried writing a burn book?

[LoveMe_HateMe]

No, too worried that someone will find it and read it...