abcd1234
November 7th, 2012, 04:26 PM
i guess the only real answer is you dont know anyhting for sure. but i have liked girls before. and when ever i had thoughts about my future it included being marrried and having kids. and before, if i ever thought about having to grow old with someone, i could only imagine staying with one of the girls who i crushed on.
that was high school. i had at that point been attracted to boys on a physical level. but i thought i was attracted to girls on both a physical and emotional level. you know? i had never met any guy who i would ever want a real relationship with. one who i would want to talk with and do more than just "physical activities" with.
but im a freshman in college now, and i feel so different about a guy. it feels waaaaay different than anything i have ever felt before. like all the oxygen is sucked ot of the room and like butterflies are in my stomach. and i fall asleep just dreaming about me cuddling/spooning him. and the lamest part of all is im pretty sure he has no idea who i am. he goes to a near by college. i met him once, and it was at a drunken party. and then i have seen, but not actually talked to him. But i think my feeling this incredibly different and special way about him makes me think im gay.
and though i used to be afraid of admitting it, the thought of him makes it okay. and i barely know him.
anyways, how should i handle this all? how can i get to know him and maybe even ask him out?
that was high school. i had at that point been attracted to boys on a physical level. but i thought i was attracted to girls on both a physical and emotional level. you know? i had never met any guy who i would ever want a real relationship with. one who i would want to talk with and do more than just "physical activities" with.
but im a freshman in college now, and i feel so different about a guy. it feels waaaaay different than anything i have ever felt before. like all the oxygen is sucked ot of the room and like butterflies are in my stomach. and i fall asleep just dreaming about me cuddling/spooning him. and the lamest part of all is im pretty sure he has no idea who i am. he goes to a near by college. i met him once, and it was at a drunken party. and then i have seen, but not actually talked to him. But i think my feeling this incredibly different and special way about him makes me think im gay.
and though i used to be afraid of admitting it, the thought of him makes it okay. and i barely know him.
anyways, how should i handle this all? how can i get to know him and maybe even ask him out?