Crying

[nice]

I'm crying as I type this because I'm bi and some other things that go with it.

I just want to know if I'm the only guy who has cried over his sexuality? Or who has hit a low point like this.

[MartyG]

Hi....

when I first realized I was growing up gay....I cried. Mostly in bed at night; I cried myself to sleep....many times over.

It's an emotional thing to realize what you are facing. You will find strength in time to realize that while you might not be growing up as the character in your life's dream for yourself (or your parents dream for you) you are a wonderful person who can give and receive love from another; whether that person is male of female doesn't matter so much.

Would you like to tell us about your family and friends? Are you scared about them finding out?

What are you feeling? We're friends here...and we want to help.

((HUGS))

MartyG

[dusman77]

I know what you're going through. I cried when I thought I was turning bi. As of right now I'm still unsure of my sexuality, but know you aren't the only one who has cried over it.

[nice]

Hi....

when I first realized I was growing up gay....I cried. Mostly in bed at night; I cried myself to sleep....many times over.

It's an emotional thing to realize what you are facing. You will find strength in time to realize that while you might not be growing up as the character in your life's dream for yourself (or your parents dream for you) you are a wonderful person who can give and receive love from another; whether that person is male of female doesn't matter so much.

Would you like to tell us about your family and friends? Are you scared about them finding out?

What are you feeling? We're friends here...and we want to help.

((HUGS))

MartyG

Well my family is very religious espically one of my aunts I went to go visit her she thought I was gay (long story why) and she said no I'm not gonna even think like that like it would be horrible if I was.

And my friends i don't know how they would react they always joked around about me being gay so i don't know how they would take it knowing I'm bi some of them might be ok but some might stop talking to me (probably the guys I hang out with sometimes).

I don't want to lose any friends, I don't want my family to know, I don't want to be bi I just want everything to go back to how it was last year.

[MartyG]

OK nice; thanks for the additional information.

It sucks soooo bad when one's own family is not supportive. Parents wonder why their kids don't want to talk to them and open up about your life.....in your situation it might be better just to keep your feelings inside for a while and see how your sexuality evolves.

A good friend of mine is (was) in almost the exact same situation as you. He had a long-distance b/f and lived in fear all the time that his family would find out.

Then; over time...they broke up and he started emphasizing his hetero side and got into a relationship with a girl.

I know how bad it feels for you right now. Being bi doesn't mean that you are going to grow up gay. In fact...from my experience it doesn't end up that way all that often. Your sexuality is evolving....so many of us have feelings for guys...and they can be soooooo intense and all-encompasing.....but that doesn't mean that your hetero side won't stay strong and win out in the end.

Or; it may not. You might evolve as gay...and if you do....you will find the strength to deal with that; with or without the support of your family. You will.

To wrap up.....I'd refrain from telling anyone right now; except for people here. Give yourself some time; your worst fears may dissolve...or you will grow and find the strength to accept yourself.

It's so cool that you're open here.....I'm sure that others here will have a lot to say to you too.....we all learn from each other.

MartyG

[nice]

OK nice; thanks for the additional information.

It sucks soooo bad when one's own family is not supportive. Parents wonder why their kids don't want to talk to them and open up about your life.....in your situation it might be better just to keep your feelings inside for a while and see how your sexuality evolves.

A good friend of mine is (was) in almost the exact same situation as you. He had a long-distance b/f and lived in fear all the time that his family would find out.

Then; over time...they broke up and he started emphasizing his hetero side and got into a relationship with a girl.

I know how bad it feels for you right now. Being bi doesn't mean that you are going to grow up gay. In fact...from my experience it doesn't end up that way all that often. Your sexuality is evolving....so many of us have feelings for guys...and they can be soooooo intense and all-encompasing.....but that doesn't mean that your hetero side won't stay strong and win out in the end.

Or; it may not. You might evolve as gay...and if you do....you will find the strength to deal with that; with or without the support of your family. You will.

To wrap up.....I'd refrain from telling anyone right now; except for people here. Give yourself some time; your worst fears may dissolve...or you will grow and find the strength to accept yourself.

It's so cool that you're open here.....I'm sure that others here will have a lot to say to you too.....we all learn from each other.

MartyG

Thanks I think I will stay quiet like I originally planned till to turn 18 and move.

[Coolboi]

nice: just be your same ol self everyone will like you just the way you are a great person .
if someone doesn't like the way you are it there loss not to have you as there friend .
st8,bi or gay what ever you pick you will be just perfict being your self.
I'm bi and I hide it till I'm ready to tell anybody plus I'm young an may change still so
I want to make sure first . as a kid going through puberty we go through a lot of changes
only time will tell an it will make us just right .

[Magnus Bane]

like always Marty G nailed... i used to cry myself to sleep when i realized i was gay... but i accepted it... and 1 year later i have a bf... wat i is mean just be yourself and don't let anyone tell you different... you can't let your friends get you down.:) good luck :cool:

[nice]

Thanks everyone. Here's an update kinda I guess:

I stopped crying I'm really happy and jumpy again and I found out one of like my best friends has a bi cousin so it's good knowing that because this is like her fav family member. On and I may go to a LGBT thing this month if I find one I like.