Tired of life, but not suicidal?

[CharlieHorse]

I'm fifteen. The past week, I've been in a strange mood. I've realized that I am not entirely satisfied with life, but at the same time, I am. I'm not going to grow up to be anybody interesting, so why bother?
As a kid I thought that all of life's adventures would keep me entertained and happy. The past week, I had a great time with friends and had a relaxing restful weekend. I also experienced my first love, (which felt nice) but only lasted a few days because she just didn't want to start dating yet (her religious reasons, and I'm atheist). But looking back, I feel completely neutral. Almost numb. I seem to forget all the happiness I experience.
I occasionally feel hatred towards society, school, people, and myself, but it all ends with a feeling with satisfactory dissatisfaction.
I have taken antidepressants for 7 months and stopped a few months ago because they made me feel fake. It almost made me feel even duller.
I don't want to live this life anymore, but I don't want to die. I feel as if I perceive things as being so dull, when they aren't. I feel trapped inside my life, but I don't feel suicidal. What should I do?

[XxAlonexX]

I feel like this, I'm 17 and i failed all my education and in a dead end job. No future prospects and i question why i bother, but i'm not always suicidal, i just want a new life. A change to something better. It is not uncommon but there is not much you can do about it, but perhaps make some lifestyle changes and perhaps start a new hobby which includes other people in it, like a group hobby where perhaps, your presence is needed so you, in a way, have a reason to be there. A reason to live.

[Matt_2012]

I feel similar to this alot of the time. i use to get through life and have alot more motivation because i use to love art.. but i lost that and now i lack motivation.. So yeah like what XxAlonexX said picking up a hobby could help and also making some life style changes.

Wish you the best :)

[djt55]

I feel similar to you. All i want is loads of money which may seem bad but money equals freedom, if u have money u can do almost anything u want. Also all i want to do is travel and see the world but again this costs money. I think the thing that gets me down the most about life is that I just want FREEDOM.