QueenOfTheOutcasts
November 4th, 2012, 11:57 PM
I'm new to the site, but this is my story-type thing...
I'm severely bullied at school, have troubles at home, and lost everything I knew awhile back ((Which I'm not really going to go into here.)) Anyway, I guess it's all just caused me to really hate life... and myself. I started self harm about a year and a half ago. My family found out in a series of very unfortunate events some time ago and, to put it in simple terms, flipped out. But not about me. They are convinced I do it for attention and think that I'm pretty much an attention-seeking failure. After several screamy arguments, they put me into therapy. I learned that it isn't helping in the slightest, and urges are only getting stronger. Research on the internet has lead me here for help. Help with whatever I may need at the time. Only one person really knows my story, and I haven't seen her in months. She sent me an email one day saying that I seem to have vanished from the face of the planet. I was just gone. She was worried I was dead. Just that email touched me in a way that for a moment, I didn't want my life to be over. I feel guilty that I could be cold enough to scare someone that I cared about like that. I'm just hoping if something more happens ((What else could)) I could come here. Or if I need help, or just someone to talk to or whatever.
Please tell me this is right.
I'm severely bullied at school, have troubles at home, and lost everything I knew awhile back ((Which I'm not really going to go into here.)) Anyway, I guess it's all just caused me to really hate life... and myself. I started self harm about a year and a half ago. My family found out in a series of very unfortunate events some time ago and, to put it in simple terms, flipped out. But not about me. They are convinced I do it for attention and think that I'm pretty much an attention-seeking failure. After several screamy arguments, they put me into therapy. I learned that it isn't helping in the slightest, and urges are only getting stronger. Research on the internet has lead me here for help. Help with whatever I may need at the time. Only one person really knows my story, and I haven't seen her in months. She sent me an email one day saying that I seem to have vanished from the face of the planet. I was just gone. She was worried I was dead. Just that email touched me in a way that for a moment, I didn't want my life to be over. I feel guilty that I could be cold enough to scare someone that I cared about like that. I'm just hoping if something more happens ((What else could)) I could come here. Or if I need help, or just someone to talk to or whatever.
Please tell me this is right.